insanity;;
GOING ON HIATUS.
wtf srsly!?
well yeah. kind.of.
uhm i've got to study. and i mean actually study. coz im startimg to die in terms of academics and everything to do with school :" ( so uhm as some might have noticed i havent even been online lately. well so this is just to inform y'all and make it kind of official. will probably come online once in a while though, being the kind of person who *just can't stay away* from all the stuff i love and people i love. /hearts and kisses
ON a brighter note, GOT A NEW COMPUTER!! its lenovo. it was free. O.o so now theres a comp in which i am STILL not the admin. maaaaan ig et no freedom in this world. lol jk i am NOT that kind of idiot.
i realised that i dont love SHINee and Taemin anymore which is really an accomplishment but now the sad part is i got so much shinee stuff, if i completely lose interest it'll all go to waste! : ( but i still heart music and love good music so it should be okay considering that you know theyre talented [like REALLY talented] and all.
ive gone partially crazy. sad. a pity. quite disgusting.
oh ED FTW! :))) im quite sure ill talk more about this as it gets along and evolves mo
okay gtg study PHYSICS uggggghhh. and do loads of homework. which i probably ALL wont do. yes, even despite the act that physics exam is in 2 days >: (
oh hey wait. i forgot to talk bout DANCE!! : DDD heartheartheartheartheart Dance~ heart
we learnt finish my second set of choreo and to me its not as nice as the first one. prolly cause i cant move the way i want so i dont look cool enough. and sometimes my body still does the old moves : ( but oveall its still awesome since dance is awesome : ))) oh and btw its to 2PM's My Colo[u]r! which i have yet to download. and apparently along with many oter new songs. my friend is ranting and fangirling to f(x) esp. Amber since theyve realeased their new song. gotta go check it out. : D saw the seem-to-be-srsly-pro-girls at the place i learn dance doing miniscule movments to the song while watching the music core perf and kind of fangirling [compliment, praise, smile, laugh, omgs, you know?]. basically that means that in 5 days they already learnt the moves. wtf i want to be that pro too : ( lets work hard! : ]
emo'd a hell lots this week+last week. bout school, stress, shinee, love, jealousy, and just just now i went crazy. seriously. i dont really know anymore. im starting to lose myself. im not giving up but i AM not doing anything to stop it from happening and going on like this. that. in fact im not even really thinking bout it at all right now. i think ill go crazy if i think about it again. can feel it coming on already. you know so many others are going through worse things, real struggles yet here i am being a coward about seemingly nothing. i dont know what the hell im doing and more like why the f am i not doing anything anyway!!? /sighs deeply. im quite sure ill eventually get out of this. but for now im not going to think about it and just run like a coward with my tail between my legs. shit im sure i wont even be able to run 2.4km. such a coward. and before i continue and go crazy, lets end this rant. night.
I will erase everything
After I say "I love you" to your emotionless heart
Just the fact I am beside you
Allows the memories sail away and flag of hope flutter
-Pianissimo, Cherry Filter
wtf srsly!?
well yeah. kind.of.
uhm i've got to study. and i mean actually study. coz im startimg to die in terms of academics and everything to do with school :" ( so uhm as some might have noticed i havent even been online lately. well so this is just to inform y'all and make it kind of official. will probably come online once in a while though, being the kind of person who *just can't stay away* from all the stuff i love and people i love. /hearts and kisses
ON a brighter note, GOT A NEW COMPUTER!! its lenovo. it was free. O.o so now theres a comp in which i am STILL not the admin. maaaaan ig et no freedom in this world. lol jk i am NOT that kind of idiot.
i realised that i dont love SHINee and Taemin anymore which is really an accomplishment but now the sad part is i got so much shinee stuff, if i completely lose interest it'll all go to waste! : ( but i still heart music and love good music so it should be okay considering that you know theyre talented [like REALLY talented] and all.
ive gone partially crazy. sad. a pity. quite disgusting.
oh ED FTW! :))) im quite sure ill talk more about this as it gets along and evolves mo
okay gtg study PHYSICS uggggghhh. and do loads of homework. which i probably ALL wont do. yes, even despite the act that physics exam is in 2 days >: (
oh hey wait. i forgot to talk bout DANCE!! : DDD heartheartheartheartheart Dance~ heart
we learnt finish my second set of choreo and to me its not as nice as the first one. prolly cause i cant move the way i want so i dont look cool enough. and sometimes my body still does the old moves : ( but oveall its still awesome since dance is awesome : ))) oh and btw its to 2PM's My Colo[u]r! which i have yet to download. and apparently along with many oter new songs. my friend is ranting and fangirling to f(x) esp. Amber since theyve realeased their new song. gotta go check it out. : D saw the seem-to-be-srsly-pro-girls at the place i learn dance doing miniscule movments to the song while watching the music core perf and kind of fangirling [compliment, praise, smile, laugh, omgs, you know?]. basically that means that in 5 days they already learnt the moves. wtf i want to be that pro too : ( lets work hard! : ]
emo'd a hell lots this week+last week. bout school, stress, shinee, love, jealousy, and just just now i went crazy. seriously. i dont really know anymore. im starting to lose myself. im not giving up but i AM not doing anything to stop it from happening and going on like this. that. in fact im not even really thinking bout it at all right now. i think ill go crazy if i think about it again. can feel it coming on already. you know so many others are going through worse things, real struggles yet here i am being a coward about seemingly nothing. i dont know what the hell im doing and more like why the f am i not doing anything anyway!!? /sighs deeply. im quite sure ill eventually get out of this. but for now im not going to think about it and just run like a coward with my tail between my legs. shit im sure i wont even be able to run 2.4km. such a coward. and before i continue and go crazy, lets end this rant. night.
I will erase everything
After I say "I love you" to your emotionless heart
Just the fact I am beside you
Allows the memories sail away and flag of hope flutter
-Pianissimo, Cherry Filter