When there's Nothing Left; Part 2
Title: "When there's nothing left"
Length: Part 2 of ???
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: Jaechun and broken Jaeho
Summary: Jae's heart has taken about as much as it can, and like always his best friend is there to support him; but this time...things are a little different.
x-posted to: hug______, jaechun_ywh
unbetaed...>_>
Okay, so at the request of several of you I decided to continue this. I think I might actually turn this into a chaptered fic. Let me know what you think? Enjoy ^^
When There's Nothing Left Part One
You reach down and gently kiss his tear away. The salty taste settles as much in your heart as it does on your tongue. Your body molds to his in just that special way it seems that lovers always fit together. You used to think that your body would only mold to one other’s that way, but you don’t question it now. However, you look upon Yoochun’s face and wonder over his tears.
“My sweet Chunnie, shedding tears again?” You question him as you slowly kiss along his face, nuzzling his face with yours. The heat is still there, but there is now an air of tenderness.
Yoochun turns his head to meet your mouth and he pours his feelings into that kiss. You wonder for just a moment if you should stop. Your lips pause for just a moment and Yoochun’s eyes open, meeting yours.
“No, Jae, don’t stop. I can handle tomorrow. I just want tonight, no matter what, I want tonight. Please.”
Your heart does something funny in your chest, a flutter maybe. Cliché you think, but it was a flutter nonetheless. You have a moment to wonder why your heart would react that way before you find yourself lost in Chun’s kisses again. Your brain goes blank with that numbing pleasure brought on when you are pressed up against your lover’s body with his hands on you and you can think of nothing but giving and finding more.
You run your hands through Yoochun’s shortened locks and your body begins to move and rub up against Yoochun’s. Your erection presses in hard against the side of his thigh, causing your breath to catch on a sigh. Yoochun’s hands are everywhere at once, running softly, whisper like, along your back and shoulders. He runs his fingertips ever lightly along the curve of your backside, causing your skin to prickle with an ever growing desire.
You begin to kiss your way down Yoochun’s chest, still lying just off to his left side. You run your hands over the other side of his chest, as your mouth begins to lay a path of fire moving ever downwards. Your fingers swirl across his nipples, causing him to grip your upper shoulders a bit firmer with his fingers. You shift yourself slightly, moving so that you are now situated between his legs. You lick along his lower abdomen, his moans heating your body even as your mouth heats his.
You finally lower your mouth to hover just above his waiting erection. You simply hover there, breathing on it, allowing his anticipation to grow.
“Jaee…damn….just…” Yoochun’s eyes are closed and his chest is heaving.
You lower your head run your tongue along him, lapping at his length like a cat with a bowl of sweet cream. Yoochun’s body is tense and tight, every muscle seemingly holding its breath, just waiting for you. You run your tongue back down him one more time, just to hear him groan again. His moan runs along your skin and through your body, straight to your loins.
“Jae…”
It was almost as if his voice could reach your most intimate parts with just that one word. You wrap your hand around him, and take in deep into your mouth, pulling back ever so slow. His back arches and his hips push into you, pushing him once again into your mouth. You open up and allow him to move along with you. Your body reacts each time he moans. His pleasure inciting your own. You continue to take Yoochun deep in your mouth, wanting nothing more than to give him all he deserves. His breath begins to quicken and you pull back.
“Yoochun, I want you inside me.” You look up into his face, allowing your love and desire for him to show plainly.
“But…Jae…no… I… want…you… ”
“Not yet, just listen to me for now, I want to feel you inside me. I want to make you come while I’m wrapped around you.”
You reach over to your pants and pull out your tube of hand lotion and pour some on your hands. You begin to rub it on Yoochun, stroking him softly, lovingly, teasingly. His protests end the moment you touch him. You take a moment to watch him writhe in pleasure. You continue to use one hand to stroke him, while wrapping the other around yourself. You move your hands in time, moving until you feel the heat building, until your breath is as ragged as his and your body begins to cry out for release. You stop moving then and just sit there for a moment between his legs.
Yoochun opens his eyes and looks at you then, his lids heavy and his face flushed. He sits up from the waist, and wraps his arms around you. He kisses you, and you know that he can taste himself on your tongue. His hand wraps around you and you cry out into his mouth. He pulls himself up onto his knees as he continues to kiss you and stroke you. You feel yourself falling into that void, reaching that point of no return, but then suddenly you find yourself being moved and braced up against the wall.
You have a moment to reflect on how very cool the wall is again, before you feel him moving behind you, pressing up against you. Your hips move back, pushing up against his body. You can feel his erection just behind you waiting for you. His fingers move along your back, and you feel his mouth in the dip between your shoulders. The warmth of his mouth against the cool wetness of your back sends shivers throughout your body. Your heart is pounding, each beat resonating throughout your entire body. A small whimper escapes your lips and you attempt to push back against Yoochun again.
“Patience, my love…” Yoochun whispers in your ear, and you jump just a little at the nearness of his mouth. His tongue runs along the back of your ear, just as you feel him enter you slowly. You bite your lip against the pain and push back through it. You hear a noise escape Yoochun’s mouth, it sounds more animal than human. It’s one of those primal noises that all creatures make during mating, that noise that is within all of us, signifying one thing. Pleasure.
Yoochun pushes into you again, more swiftly this time and you meet his body with yours. He begins to move, setting a rhythm with you. You feel him deep inside you, and you push back harder until the pleasure begins to build with each thrust. You can no longer contain the pleasure and you begin to moan with each stroke.
“Yoochunah….unhh… mmm… I.. I ….” Your body tightens as you hear his breath coming quicker and quicker now.
“Oh my god.. Jae… I .. never thought… I never…”
“Come inside me Yoochun, come inside me now…” You call out just as you feel his body tense and push up hard against you, you push back into him crying out as well as he empties himself into you.
You feel him push one last time into you, his body straining up against yours, as if it were trying to push through you until it was a part of you. His body relaxes then and he rests his chin on your shoulder. You are still panting and your hands are balled into fists up against the wall.
“Jae…” Yoochun tries to talk, but still seems to be beyond words.
You turn around and press your mouth up to his. Your body presses against him, your tight erection showing him just how much you still desire him. Yoochun’s eyes widen when he feels you pressed firmly up against his flat stomach.
“But, I thought… I never would have came before you if I…” Yoochun begins to reach his hand down to touch you, but you grab his wrist and silence him with another long kiss.
“I told you that I wanted to feel you come inside me, and you did. Now it’s my turn to make love to you. This is you and me tonight. There are no rules, no set patterns, tonight is all about what we make it.” You run your hand down Yoochun’s cheek and allow him to see the hunger in your gaze.
Hunger. It’s as primal a word as desire and lust. But tonight’s hunger has gone beyond that. It’s deeper than that. Your body craves to fill him just as he filled you. You run your hand down Yoochun’s chest and kiss him deeply, your mouth taking in his upper lip to tease at it and then his lower. Your hand snakes down and slow begins to rub along his still slightly firm length.
His fingers dig into your shoulders, as you touch him. He sucks in a breath and steals the air from your mouth. You release your kiss, and push him back slightly with your free hand. He settles back, allowing you to once again lay on top of him.
Your body strains and grinds up against him, but you fight back the urge to take him too swiftly. You want this to be perfect. You feel him begin to react to your touch once again. His eyes close and a whimper escapes his lips. Your bodies slide along each other, hot and slick with your sweat. You pull back and once again reach for the lotion bottle. You pour the lotion directly on to his erection and then rub both of your hands up the sides of his erection. The lotion is slick and warm as you spread some on yourself. You can’t help but moan as you touch yourself.
You move back a little and situate yourself between Yoochun’s legs. You lift one of his legs a bit and he shifts beneath you to give you access. He is already biting his lip as you continue to stroke him, but you can see a bit of unease flit across his face.
“Wait…. Yoochun, you have done this before right? I mean, I thought that … well, there was that guy last year in Japan right?”
Yoochun just looks up at you, his love and trust filling his eyes and you find yourself bringing his leg up to your mouth. You bend your head and place a kiss on the inside of his leg, your hand still wrapped around the length of him, tenderly stroking him.
“I …well, I didn’t want you to feel bad for me because you had Yunho. Your happiness…just… I …just… ” Yoochun’s eyes rolled closed. This time you weren’t quite sure if it was because of the pleasure, or because of the emotion you heard in his voice.
“I’ve always loved you Jaejoong. There’s never been another.” Yoochun turned his head then and reached his hand down to touch yours.
“Please, Jae, Please make love to me…I’m begging you… don’t stop. I want you. I’ve always wanted my first time to be with you. I always dreamed my first time would be with you. I just never actually imagined my dreams would come true. Please…” His breath began to come out quicker and his voice tightened, “please, just…don’t stop…I want you inside me too.”
You lowered his leg and ran your hand along the inside of his thigh. You would have to take things a little slower. The last thing you wanted on earth was for your pleasure to cause him pain. You moved your hand to rest along his ass, rubbing it before carefully inserting a finger into him. You watched a look cross his face as he moved his body and attempted to get used to the sensation.
You moved your finger slowly, pulling it back and then moving it forward again. You pressed deeper each time. Allowing him to get used to the sensation. As his breathing eased and he began to moan again as your hands worked him, you slipped in another finger. He took a quick breath and then began to move his hips again. You reached down and pulled his hips up. You can feel his body tense in your hands. You press yourself up against him carefully, and are shocked when he pushes hard back against you, forcing you to enter him. He cries out your name as you enter him, and your body is flushed with pleasure. You pull back carefully, and move in him again.
“Jae…don’t stop. I won’t break you know… I need you …deep… inside me… now” Yoochun pushed back hard and gasped at the pain/pleasure that ran through his body.
You watched his face flush and his breath quicken as you began to drive deep into his body. It was in that moment that you knew you would never be able to go back. You looked down at his naked body arched below yours, moving against you, matching your rhythm and you knew that things would never be the same again. A pleasure so intense welled up in you that you almost lost yourself right then. You slowed yourself again, so that you could continue to pleasure Yoochun.
Yoochun began to cry out with each stroke of your body and hand. His head turned back and forth and he bit at his lip in an attempt to hold back. You allowed the pleasure to build again as you looked at him. You felt the heat rising up inside you, welling up like living, breathing thing begging for release from your body. You continued to push into him, and you began to cry out as you neared your peak.
“Yoochun….Mmm…I’m…I’m….”
“Come inside me, just like…I …did…you…” Yoochun came once again, on his last word, spilling himself all over the both of you. You let yourself go then, pushing in those last two strokes and allowing the rush of pleasure to run rampart through your system. Every nerve fiber in your body was alive and shimmering with ecstasy.
You collapsed on top of Yoochun, trying to find your breath. Your head is spinning and actually feels dangerously light. You didn’t think that you could pass out from really good sex, but if you could, tonight would probably put it to the test. You tried started to think about Yunho and stopped yourself. That was one thing you would never do, you would never compare the two of them. You loved them both. Wait. You loved them both? You took at deep breath and pushed back the fear that niggled at the back of your mind. Tonight …you told yourself concentrate on tonight
“Jaejoong?” Yoochun said your name questioningly and lifted his head to look at you.
You lifted your head and looked into his eyes. He reached out and cupped your chin as it hovered over his chest.
“Don’t.”
“Don’t what?” You asked.
“Don’t think. Not yet, just don’t think about it yet. I want to lay here with you for a little bit longer before we allow reality back in our world. You were the one who said that tonight was for us, well, lets keep it that way.” Yoochun stroked your cheek as he spoke, and your heart tugged at you in response.
You laid your head on his chest and spoke softly. “Yoochun, take me to you bed. I want to sleep with you tonight.”
“But Jae, what happens when Yunho wakes up and finds out that you aren’t in bed?” Yoochun asked.
“I don’t know, and for tonight I’m not going to worry about it. He’s had his mistress for longer than I care to think about; well… tonight I’m done with it. I want to be with you. I want to wrap myself around you as I sleep. I want to feel your arms around me when I wake. Will you do that for me?” You nuzzled your face into Yoochun’s chest and feel his arms come up to wrap around you.
“You know I will. I’ll move heaven and earth if it will make you happy. You are the other half of me. I’ve gone a long time dreaming of having you, but knowing that you were meant for another. To hold you in my arms for tonight would be an honor.” Yoochun continued to hold you, rubbing his hands up and down your back.
You looked up and the tears that settled in your eyes recognized the tears that lay in his and both of you clung to the other as if tomorrow was just a dream that would never be realized.
Length: Part 2 of ???
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: Jaechun and broken Jaeho
Summary: Jae's heart has taken about as much as it can, and like always his best friend is there to support him; but this time...things are a little different.
x-posted to: hug______, jaechun_ywh
unbetaed...>_>
Okay, so at the request of several of you I decided to continue this. I think I might actually turn this into a chaptered fic. Let me know what you think? Enjoy ^^
When There's Nothing Left Part One
You reach down and gently kiss his tear away. The salty taste settles as much in your heart as it does on your tongue. Your body molds to his in just that special way it seems that lovers always fit together. You used to think that your body would only mold to one other’s that way, but you don’t question it now. However, you look upon Yoochun’s face and wonder over his tears.
“My sweet Chunnie, shedding tears again?” You question him as you slowly kiss along his face, nuzzling his face with yours. The heat is still there, but there is now an air of tenderness.
Yoochun turns his head to meet your mouth and he pours his feelings into that kiss. You wonder for just a moment if you should stop. Your lips pause for just a moment and Yoochun’s eyes open, meeting yours.
“No, Jae, don’t stop. I can handle tomorrow. I just want tonight, no matter what, I want tonight. Please.”
Your heart does something funny in your chest, a flutter maybe. Cliché you think, but it was a flutter nonetheless. You have a moment to wonder why your heart would react that way before you find yourself lost in Chun’s kisses again. Your brain goes blank with that numbing pleasure brought on when you are pressed up against your lover’s body with his hands on you and you can think of nothing but giving and finding more.
You run your hands through Yoochun’s shortened locks and your body begins to move and rub up against Yoochun’s. Your erection presses in hard against the side of his thigh, causing your breath to catch on a sigh. Yoochun’s hands are everywhere at once, running softly, whisper like, along your back and shoulders. He runs his fingertips ever lightly along the curve of your backside, causing your skin to prickle with an ever growing desire.
You begin to kiss your way down Yoochun’s chest, still lying just off to his left side. You run your hands over the other side of his chest, as your mouth begins to lay a path of fire moving ever downwards. Your fingers swirl across his nipples, causing him to grip your upper shoulders a bit firmer with his fingers. You shift yourself slightly, moving so that you are now situated between his legs. You lick along his lower abdomen, his moans heating your body even as your mouth heats his.
You finally lower your mouth to hover just above his waiting erection. You simply hover there, breathing on it, allowing his anticipation to grow.
“Jaee…damn….just…” Yoochun’s eyes are closed and his chest is heaving.
You lower your head run your tongue along him, lapping at his length like a cat with a bowl of sweet cream. Yoochun’s body is tense and tight, every muscle seemingly holding its breath, just waiting for you. You run your tongue back down him one more time, just to hear him groan again. His moan runs along your skin and through your body, straight to your loins.
“Jae…”
It was almost as if his voice could reach your most intimate parts with just that one word. You wrap your hand around him, and take in deep into your mouth, pulling back ever so slow. His back arches and his hips push into you, pushing him once again into your mouth. You open up and allow him to move along with you. Your body reacts each time he moans. His pleasure inciting your own. You continue to take Yoochun deep in your mouth, wanting nothing more than to give him all he deserves. His breath begins to quicken and you pull back.
“Yoochun, I want you inside me.” You look up into his face, allowing your love and desire for him to show plainly.
“But…Jae…no… I… want…you… ”
“Not yet, just listen to me for now, I want to feel you inside me. I want to make you come while I’m wrapped around you.”
You reach over to your pants and pull out your tube of hand lotion and pour some on your hands. You begin to rub it on Yoochun, stroking him softly, lovingly, teasingly. His protests end the moment you touch him. You take a moment to watch him writhe in pleasure. You continue to use one hand to stroke him, while wrapping the other around yourself. You move your hands in time, moving until you feel the heat building, until your breath is as ragged as his and your body begins to cry out for release. You stop moving then and just sit there for a moment between his legs.
Yoochun opens his eyes and looks at you then, his lids heavy and his face flushed. He sits up from the waist, and wraps his arms around you. He kisses you, and you know that he can taste himself on your tongue. His hand wraps around you and you cry out into his mouth. He pulls himself up onto his knees as he continues to kiss you and stroke you. You feel yourself falling into that void, reaching that point of no return, but then suddenly you find yourself being moved and braced up against the wall.
You have a moment to reflect on how very cool the wall is again, before you feel him moving behind you, pressing up against you. Your hips move back, pushing up against his body. You can feel his erection just behind you waiting for you. His fingers move along your back, and you feel his mouth in the dip between your shoulders. The warmth of his mouth against the cool wetness of your back sends shivers throughout your body. Your heart is pounding, each beat resonating throughout your entire body. A small whimper escapes your lips and you attempt to push back against Yoochun again.
“Patience, my love…” Yoochun whispers in your ear, and you jump just a little at the nearness of his mouth. His tongue runs along the back of your ear, just as you feel him enter you slowly. You bite your lip against the pain and push back through it. You hear a noise escape Yoochun’s mouth, it sounds more animal than human. It’s one of those primal noises that all creatures make during mating, that noise that is within all of us, signifying one thing. Pleasure.
Yoochun pushes into you again, more swiftly this time and you meet his body with yours. He begins to move, setting a rhythm with you. You feel him deep inside you, and you push back harder until the pleasure begins to build with each thrust. You can no longer contain the pleasure and you begin to moan with each stroke.
“Yoochunah….unhh… mmm… I.. I ….” Your body tightens as you hear his breath coming quicker and quicker now.
“Oh my god.. Jae… I .. never thought… I never…”
“Come inside me Yoochun, come inside me now…” You call out just as you feel his body tense and push up hard against you, you push back into him crying out as well as he empties himself into you.
You feel him push one last time into you, his body straining up against yours, as if it were trying to push through you until it was a part of you. His body relaxes then and he rests his chin on your shoulder. You are still panting and your hands are balled into fists up against the wall.
“Jae…” Yoochun tries to talk, but still seems to be beyond words.
You turn around and press your mouth up to his. Your body presses against him, your tight erection showing him just how much you still desire him. Yoochun’s eyes widen when he feels you pressed firmly up against his flat stomach.
“But, I thought… I never would have came before you if I…” Yoochun begins to reach his hand down to touch you, but you grab his wrist and silence him with another long kiss.
“I told you that I wanted to feel you come inside me, and you did. Now it’s my turn to make love to you. This is you and me tonight. There are no rules, no set patterns, tonight is all about what we make it.” You run your hand down Yoochun’s cheek and allow him to see the hunger in your gaze.
Hunger. It’s as primal a word as desire and lust. But tonight’s hunger has gone beyond that. It’s deeper than that. Your body craves to fill him just as he filled you. You run your hand down Yoochun’s chest and kiss him deeply, your mouth taking in his upper lip to tease at it and then his lower. Your hand snakes down and slow begins to rub along his still slightly firm length.
His fingers dig into your shoulders, as you touch him. He sucks in a breath and steals the air from your mouth. You release your kiss, and push him back slightly with your free hand. He settles back, allowing you to once again lay on top of him.
Your body strains and grinds up against him, but you fight back the urge to take him too swiftly. You want this to be perfect. You feel him begin to react to your touch once again. His eyes close and a whimper escapes his lips. Your bodies slide along each other, hot and slick with your sweat. You pull back and once again reach for the lotion bottle. You pour the lotion directly on to his erection and then rub both of your hands up the sides of his erection. The lotion is slick and warm as you spread some on yourself. You can’t help but moan as you touch yourself.
You move back a little and situate yourself between Yoochun’s legs. You lift one of his legs a bit and he shifts beneath you to give you access. He is already biting his lip as you continue to stroke him, but you can see a bit of unease flit across his face.
“Wait…. Yoochun, you have done this before right? I mean, I thought that … well, there was that guy last year in Japan right?”
Yoochun just looks up at you, his love and trust filling his eyes and you find yourself bringing his leg up to your mouth. You bend your head and place a kiss on the inside of his leg, your hand still wrapped around the length of him, tenderly stroking him.
“I …well, I didn’t want you to feel bad for me because you had Yunho. Your happiness…just… I …just… ” Yoochun’s eyes rolled closed. This time you weren’t quite sure if it was because of the pleasure, or because of the emotion you heard in his voice.
“I’ve always loved you Jaejoong. There’s never been another.” Yoochun turned his head then and reached his hand down to touch yours.
“Please, Jae, Please make love to me…I’m begging you… don’t stop. I want you. I’ve always wanted my first time to be with you. I always dreamed my first time would be with you. I just never actually imagined my dreams would come true. Please…” His breath began to come out quicker and his voice tightened, “please, just…don’t stop…I want you inside me too.”
You lowered his leg and ran your hand along the inside of his thigh. You would have to take things a little slower. The last thing you wanted on earth was for your pleasure to cause him pain. You moved your hand to rest along his ass, rubbing it before carefully inserting a finger into him. You watched a look cross his face as he moved his body and attempted to get used to the sensation.
You moved your finger slowly, pulling it back and then moving it forward again. You pressed deeper each time. Allowing him to get used to the sensation. As his breathing eased and he began to moan again as your hands worked him, you slipped in another finger. He took a quick breath and then began to move his hips again. You reached down and pulled his hips up. You can feel his body tense in your hands. You press yourself up against him carefully, and are shocked when he pushes hard back against you, forcing you to enter him. He cries out your name as you enter him, and your body is flushed with pleasure. You pull back carefully, and move in him again.
“Jae…don’t stop. I won’t break you know… I need you …deep… inside me… now” Yoochun pushed back hard and gasped at the pain/pleasure that ran through his body.
You watched his face flush and his breath quicken as you began to drive deep into his body. It was in that moment that you knew you would never be able to go back. You looked down at his naked body arched below yours, moving against you, matching your rhythm and you knew that things would never be the same again. A pleasure so intense welled up in you that you almost lost yourself right then. You slowed yourself again, so that you could continue to pleasure Yoochun.
Yoochun began to cry out with each stroke of your body and hand. His head turned back and forth and he bit at his lip in an attempt to hold back. You allowed the pleasure to build again as you looked at him. You felt the heat rising up inside you, welling up like living, breathing thing begging for release from your body. You continued to push into him, and you began to cry out as you neared your peak.
“Yoochun….Mmm…I’m…I’m….”
“Come inside me, just like…I …did…you…” Yoochun came once again, on his last word, spilling himself all over the both of you. You let yourself go then, pushing in those last two strokes and allowing the rush of pleasure to run rampart through your system. Every nerve fiber in your body was alive and shimmering with ecstasy.
You collapsed on top of Yoochun, trying to find your breath. Your head is spinning and actually feels dangerously light. You didn’t think that you could pass out from really good sex, but if you could, tonight would probably put it to the test. You tried started to think about Yunho and stopped yourself. That was one thing you would never do, you would never compare the two of them. You loved them both. Wait. You loved them both? You took at deep breath and pushed back the fear that niggled at the back of your mind. Tonight …you told yourself concentrate on tonight
“Jaejoong?” Yoochun said your name questioningly and lifted his head to look at you.
You lifted your head and looked into his eyes. He reached out and cupped your chin as it hovered over his chest.
“Don’t.”
“Don’t what?” You asked.
“Don’t think. Not yet, just don’t think about it yet. I want to lay here with you for a little bit longer before we allow reality back in our world. You were the one who said that tonight was for us, well, lets keep it that way.” Yoochun stroked your cheek as he spoke, and your heart tugged at you in response.
You laid your head on his chest and spoke softly. “Yoochun, take me to you bed. I want to sleep with you tonight.”
“But Jae, what happens when Yunho wakes up and finds out that you aren’t in bed?” Yoochun asked.
“I don’t know, and for tonight I’m not going to worry about it. He’s had his mistress for longer than I care to think about; well… tonight I’m done with it. I want to be with you. I want to wrap myself around you as I sleep. I want to feel your arms around me when I wake. Will you do that for me?” You nuzzled your face into Yoochun’s chest and feel his arms come up to wrap around you.
“You know I will. I’ll move heaven and earth if it will make you happy. You are the other half of me. I’ve gone a long time dreaming of having you, but knowing that you were meant for another. To hold you in my arms for tonight would be an honor.” Yoochun continued to hold you, rubbing his hands up and down your back.
You looked up and the tears that settled in your eyes recognized the tears that lay in his and both of you clung to the other as if tomorrow was just a dream that would never be realized.