soo....
So I smoked pot last night for the first time in about 5 weeks. Why did I quit? Well, because it seemed that every time I smoked I felt like shit and like I was going to die. It's hard to explain. I felt paranoid all the time and I hated feeling that way. I wasn't able to sleep because my heart was pounding in my ears. Besides all the physical side effects, it was affecting my school and work. I couldn't concentrate for shit and it was affecting my grades. So far this semester I have been caught up in school and getting A's and B's on all of my assignments.
I smoked last night because I saw this crazy weed that Crazy had and it was so crystal'y that I had to have a piece for myself. I decided, hey I don't have to get an internship any time soon right? So we rolled a joint and OMG I haven't been so high in so long. I thought it was going to make me feel different.. But no, I felt like shit and I felt like I was going to die. I could feel my insides and they were in pain. Maybe that's why I stopped smoking to begin with. Too much of a good thing I suppose.
Anyway, what's new... what's new... not much. I took my family to Disney World on Sunday because I got a holiday package from Planet Hollywood. Just a benefit of working for a partner of Disney. Anyway, we went to animal kingdom and MGM studios. It was pretty awesome! I want to post some pics on here but I have to load them on photobucket first and I'm too freakin' lazy for that right now. I have one ticket left that I am saving for when Alex and I can go together.
We bought out tickets for vacation a couple days ago. We're flying into JFK on the 10th (SAT) and leaving on the 17th (SAT). From there, we'll go to CT and have lots of fun, one of the days is going to be dedicated to going to PA and eating dinner with some of my family. I haven't been there in so long. I want to take Alex by where I used to live.. but will it be the same as I remember? What if it's completely run down and shitty... or what if everything is built up now? It's been almost 5 years since I've been there. I really am excited though. I need to start saving as much money as possible but I just bought DDR and a dancepad! I miss DDR plus I really need to lose some weight. I've gained 20 pounds since I've moved to Orlando. Sure, my ass is bigger and my boobs are twice the size (which Alex loves btw). I'm not doing it for Alex, but for myself. I want to be able to wear a bikini this summer and look great in it. I guess it shouldn't matter that much because Alex is the only man that should be caring what I look like anyway..
I got my new degree audit for Micro and Molecular Biology and wow... there's a lot of shit I need to do. A lot of hard shit. But, if I'm going to Med School and if I'm going to succeed, this is what I need to do. Starting in the Fall I will be going to school full time again. Also, I'll be getting an internship or job in a hospital. By that time, my scholarship will be back in full effect since I've raised my GPA back up to what it needs to be. Apparently I need to raise it a lot higher than what it is. I have almost a 3.1 now and it needs to be about a 3.7 for me to get into Med School. I think in two years I can accomplish that. I want to be able to join the psychology honor society at UCF. That will look great on my resume ;). Also, in the fall I plan on joining the psychology club and pre health professions club at UCF. The only reason I'm not joining now is because is does cost money, money which I don't feel like spending on something that can wait. What else needs to be done? Well, it would be helpful for me to become a teacher assistant for a semester or two. That looks great on resumes, too. I was thinking about becoming a trainer at Planet Hollywood because I know I can do it and I've gotten the go-ahead by my managers.. but I need to concentrate more on school. If I become a trainer, that will require more time and effort for Planet Hollywood. I would have to work 40 hours per week and attend meetings and do extra shit. I don't feel like working 40 hours a week when I have school, maybe during the summer.
Well speaking of school I should probably go read a chapter in my text book!! :D (oh yay)
I smoked last night because I saw this crazy weed that Crazy had and it was so crystal'y that I had to have a piece for myself. I decided, hey I don't have to get an internship any time soon right? So we rolled a joint and OMG I haven't been so high in so long. I thought it was going to make me feel different.. But no, I felt like shit and I felt like I was going to die. I could feel my insides and they were in pain. Maybe that's why I stopped smoking to begin with. Too much of a good thing I suppose.
Anyway, what's new... what's new... not much. I took my family to Disney World on Sunday because I got a holiday package from Planet Hollywood. Just a benefit of working for a partner of Disney. Anyway, we went to animal kingdom and MGM studios. It was pretty awesome! I want to post some pics on here but I have to load them on photobucket first and I'm too freakin' lazy for that right now. I have one ticket left that I am saving for when Alex and I can go together.
We bought out tickets for vacation a couple days ago. We're flying into JFK on the 10th (SAT) and leaving on the 17th (SAT). From there, we'll go to CT and have lots of fun, one of the days is going to be dedicated to going to PA and eating dinner with some of my family. I haven't been there in so long. I want to take Alex by where I used to live.. but will it be the same as I remember? What if it's completely run down and shitty... or what if everything is built up now? It's been almost 5 years since I've been there. I really am excited though. I need to start saving as much money as possible but I just bought DDR and a dancepad! I miss DDR plus I really need to lose some weight. I've gained 20 pounds since I've moved to Orlando. Sure, my ass is bigger and my boobs are twice the size (which Alex loves btw). I'm not doing it for Alex, but for myself. I want to be able to wear a bikini this summer and look great in it. I guess it shouldn't matter that much because Alex is the only man that should be caring what I look like anyway..
I got my new degree audit for Micro and Molecular Biology and wow... there's a lot of shit I need to do. A lot of hard shit. But, if I'm going to Med School and if I'm going to succeed, this is what I need to do. Starting in the Fall I will be going to school full time again. Also, I'll be getting an internship or job in a hospital. By that time, my scholarship will be back in full effect since I've raised my GPA back up to what it needs to be. Apparently I need to raise it a lot higher than what it is. I have almost a 3.1 now and it needs to be about a 3.7 for me to get into Med School. I think in two years I can accomplish that. I want to be able to join the psychology honor society at UCF. That will look great on my resume ;). Also, in the fall I plan on joining the psychology club and pre health professions club at UCF. The only reason I'm not joining now is because is does cost money, money which I don't feel like spending on something that can wait. What else needs to be done? Well, it would be helpful for me to become a teacher assistant for a semester or two. That looks great on resumes, too. I was thinking about becoming a trainer at Planet Hollywood because I know I can do it and I've gotten the go-ahead by my managers.. but I need to concentrate more on school. If I become a trainer, that will require more time and effort for Planet Hollywood. I would have to work 40 hours per week and attend meetings and do extra shit. I don't feel like working 40 hours a week when I have school, maybe during the summer.
Well speaking of school I should probably go read a chapter in my text book!! :D (oh yay)