Music = Life
So, I'm still kinda stressed out. Things have been bugging me lately. First, its the bills. I figured out that Alex and I have over $1000 in bills a month, not including food. Water was 25 bucks for 10 days! That doesn't make any fucking sense. Let's put them all down on paper, shall we?
Rent: $680
Cable/net: $95
Electric: $60
Water: $75? (doesn't seem right)
Gas: $75
Food: $350 roughly
Alex's car insurance: $150
Alex's phone: $50
Okay so I think I got almost everything down. Add it all up? Okay thats almost $1500 a month. Infuckingsane. I never realized that bills were gonna cost this much. I guess when you live on your own and pay for everything, you don't take shit for granted anymore. Rent is due on the first and I only have like $160 saved. I promised Alex I would have at least $200 to give him. I do have another week of work left, so I know I will have more than that. Besides all that, I have to pay for Corona's doc visits. Yesterday it cost me 43 bucks, and in 2 weeks I have to dish out another 65! That's just way too much for me. I'm only working part time and going to school full time. I have a little income coming in from ebay, but I'm almost out of shit to sell. I need to just chill out. I know we can afford this, because Alex is making good money at his job. The only thing is, I feel bad that I can't come up with my half of the bills. He needs a new car, and he's saving up for that. He wants to buy me a ring, and he's saving for that. What the fuck am I saving for? Anyway, besides all this bill bullshit.. My loan hasn't gone thru yet. I should be getting $1500 this semester, but my promissary note isn't ready for me to sign yet. Disembursments started on the 18th. I haven't gotten my books yet either. I NEED them this week, no exceptions. I filled out a form for a short term advance of $500, which I should be getting in a few days. I'm supposed to be getting $300 for books from Bright Futures, but idk where the fuck that shit is hiding at. BAHHHH!!
Anyway, enough talk about money. I was thinking about changing my major. Maybe it's only a passing thought. Right now my major is Psychology and the plan is to eventually become a Doctor. I know I can do it, because I have the brians and the motivation. But, is that career going to make me happy? Sure, it's gonna bring in some excellent cash, but money doesn't buy happiness. It just buys everything else. Performing is my passion. Music is my life. I wish so much that I could do that for a living, but it's so hard to find a decent paying job in that field to start off. You have to be really lucky, in the right place at the right time I guess. I could major in Musical Theatre or something and travel all over to auditions and maybe get lucky and land a role. I know I have the talent. I've landed lead roles and was at the top of my acting class in high school. But, that's high school. That shit doesn't matter anymore. My voice is what's gonna get me somewhere. I thank God for the gift that he gave me, and I don't want to let it go to waste. I was working with Charlie at Coropollo Lyvewire, but that didn't go too far. He was too busy, plus I now live 2 hours away. What do you guys think? I need opinions. Should I go for my dream of performing and see what happens? Or should I continue with my major in psych with a guaranteed high paying job? Bah, I'm at a loss. HELP!!!
Rent: $680
Cable/net: $95
Electric: $60
Water: $75? (doesn't seem right)
Gas: $75
Food: $350 roughly
Alex's car insurance: $150
Alex's phone: $50
Okay so I think I got almost everything down. Add it all up? Okay thats almost $1500 a month. Infuckingsane. I never realized that bills were gonna cost this much. I guess when you live on your own and pay for everything, you don't take shit for granted anymore. Rent is due on the first and I only have like $160 saved. I promised Alex I would have at least $200 to give him. I do have another week of work left, so I know I will have more than that. Besides all that, I have to pay for Corona's doc visits. Yesterday it cost me 43 bucks, and in 2 weeks I have to dish out another 65! That's just way too much for me. I'm only working part time and going to school full time. I have a little income coming in from ebay, but I'm almost out of shit to sell. I need to just chill out. I know we can afford this, because Alex is making good money at his job. The only thing is, I feel bad that I can't come up with my half of the bills. He needs a new car, and he's saving up for that. He wants to buy me a ring, and he's saving for that. What the fuck am I saving for? Anyway, besides all this bill bullshit.. My loan hasn't gone thru yet. I should be getting $1500 this semester, but my promissary note isn't ready for me to sign yet. Disembursments started on the 18th. I haven't gotten my books yet either. I NEED them this week, no exceptions. I filled out a form for a short term advance of $500, which I should be getting in a few days. I'm supposed to be getting $300 for books from Bright Futures, but idk where the fuck that shit is hiding at. BAHHHH!!
Anyway, enough talk about money. I was thinking about changing my major. Maybe it's only a passing thought. Right now my major is Psychology and the plan is to eventually become a Doctor. I know I can do it, because I have the brians and the motivation. But, is that career going to make me happy? Sure, it's gonna bring in some excellent cash, but money doesn't buy happiness. It just buys everything else. Performing is my passion. Music is my life. I wish so much that I could do that for a living, but it's so hard to find a decent paying job in that field to start off. You have to be really lucky, in the right place at the right time I guess. I could major in Musical Theatre or something and travel all over to auditions and maybe get lucky and land a role. I know I have the talent. I've landed lead roles and was at the top of my acting class in high school. But, that's high school. That shit doesn't matter anymore. My voice is what's gonna get me somewhere. I thank God for the gift that he gave me, and I don't want to let it go to waste. I was working with Charlie at Coropollo Lyvewire, but that didn't go too far. He was too busy, plus I now live 2 hours away. What do you guys think? I need opinions. Should I go for my dream of performing and see what happens? Or should I continue with my major in psych with a guaranteed high paying job? Bah, I'm at a loss. HELP!!!