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[misterwordsmith]

I woke and gloom surrounded me
As it had when I'd fallen
When my sheets still were cool
When my eyes were open and saw nothing

My chest felt like my blood was coagulating
As it moved through
Stifling my air
Pain seemed too much
Why go on?

What came before?

Not yesterday or the one before

... before ...

Many faces, many blurred
Many voices, many heard

Each face's hand
A brick did place
Each voice I heard
Knowledge I'd take

Til now,
Til Thursday's darkness masked the architecture
Hid the volumes that made my personal Alexandrian repository
And drove me to destroy it

Bricks to dust
Blackened parchment

"I did not write this chapter that I am in
And so it should end at my pleasure
In my pain"

So it would be
My last statement on my life

I saw tears
And friends
Heard 'wonders why'
And 'didn't knows'

Then God's hand reached down
A light shone
Illuminating all that I was
All that I'd been built up to be
All that I meant
To all who meant to me

And knew the hurt I'd feel
If I was reading their last chapter
As they would read mine

And He showed me that tomorrows existed
Still
Though today was long

And that was yesterday
Long ago

With Him
I move on