the drama continues
I get this email from Rachel:
"Hey... have i ever told you how much I hate dial-up? It blows. So I have had a
couple of epiphanies I would like to share with you. One is that I think I'm
supposed to be with some really "perfect" guy who makes 6 figures, went to
Princeton but still loves the Ramones..... I have this image of who I think my
family wants me to bring home and it is such bullshit.... I think I saw that
when my mom went into the bakery. I think she wanted to see who her daughter
had been seeing... I don't think SHE even has those weird, haughty expectations
for me- I made them up. I think she just wants me to be with someone who makes
me happy. When I really search my soul, I see that I would rather be with
someone who makes me happy, who I can laugh with, who likes some of the same
movies, who I can go away with and still have fun. The other big stuff doesn't
mean that much.... I pay my own bills, I sew on the side, I can tow my own
weight... Maybe if we were together, like committed, serious, no more fucking
around on and off shit we could actually create some of that stuff together....
Maybe all those BIG things that I always think aren't so big and would fall
into place if we nurtured them. Maybe all that material shit would just fall
into place with us......
I don't know, I am not trying to freak you totally out. I know I'm crazy
to ask this, but I really want you to give me another chance. I know I have
seriously fucked up and I regret it. I guess I thought we would just keep doing
the back and forth thing, I guess I have taken you for granted but all this has
shown me that you really will walk away.
So.... if we get back together I will:
a) encourage you rather than criticize you
b) when/if your friends stop hating me I will be openminded and try to get to
know them.
c) I will introduce you to some of my friends
d) I will stop the back and forth bullshit and stop taking you for granted...
e) I will support you emotionally
f) I will wear the black panties every night for the next year......
so, I am giving her another chance. This is the last one. I have told her that I am not doing this again. I feel ok about this, and she is wanting to meet my parents and all of that stuff. Will it work out? Time will tell.
We went to see Garden State the other day. I fucking hate Natalie Portman. I guess it's residual "Star Wars" hatred, mixed with her Rolling Stone story were she stated that "living in Israel would be a big political statement for me to make". I wonder what part of that statement is this. I'm not a big fan of Israel. It amazes me that everyone gets so worked up over Iraq and yet noone worries about what our allies are doing to the people over there. Watch "Death in Gaza" sometime and tell me that these people are worthy of being our friends
I dunno, sorry to rant. Have a nice day.
"Hey... have i ever told you how much I hate dial-up? It blows. So I have had a
couple of epiphanies I would like to share with you. One is that I think I'm
supposed to be with some really "perfect" guy who makes 6 figures, went to
Princeton but still loves the Ramones..... I have this image of who I think my
family wants me to bring home and it is such bullshit.... I think I saw that
when my mom went into the bakery. I think she wanted to see who her daughter
had been seeing... I don't think SHE even has those weird, haughty expectations
for me- I made them up. I think she just wants me to be with someone who makes
me happy. When I really search my soul, I see that I would rather be with
someone who makes me happy, who I can laugh with, who likes some of the same
movies, who I can go away with and still have fun. The other big stuff doesn't
mean that much.... I pay my own bills, I sew on the side, I can tow my own
weight... Maybe if we were together, like committed, serious, no more fucking
around on and off shit we could actually create some of that stuff together....
Maybe all those BIG things that I always think aren't so big and would fall
into place if we nurtured them. Maybe all that material shit would just fall
into place with us......
I don't know, I am not trying to freak you totally out. I know I'm crazy
to ask this, but I really want you to give me another chance. I know I have
seriously fucked up and I regret it. I guess I thought we would just keep doing
the back and forth thing, I guess I have taken you for granted but all this has
shown me that you really will walk away.
So.... if we get back together I will:
a) encourage you rather than criticize you
b) when/if your friends stop hating me I will be openminded and try to get to
know them.
c) I will introduce you to some of my friends
d) I will stop the back and forth bullshit and stop taking you for granted...
e) I will support you emotionally
f) I will wear the black panties every night for the next year......
so, I am giving her another chance. This is the last one. I have told her that I am not doing this again. I feel ok about this, and she is wanting to meet my parents and all of that stuff. Will it work out? Time will tell.
We went to see Garden State the other day. I fucking hate Natalie Portman. I guess it's residual "Star Wars" hatred, mixed with her Rolling Stone story were she stated that "living in Israel would be a big political statement for me to make". I wonder what part of that statement is this. I'm not a big fan of Israel. It amazes me that everyone gets so worked up over Iraq and yet noone worries about what our allies are doing to the people over there. Watch "Death in Gaza" sometime and tell me that these people are worthy of being our friends
I dunno, sorry to rant. Have a nice day.