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[mistersaphire]

I am back. It's been much long of an anticipated wait for me. The year almost has gone by and now I am finally back with you, one known as journal. Now pretend you are the creature of my dreams and let me bleed with you. Watch my eyes pulse and glisten and burn for but only you. My life is an astonishing array of twists turns falls pain and loss. The burning deep in my soul wont leave me. The tears from within are never shed on the surface. Weakness is the only true weakness. Dont feel pressured, but don't feel like you dont have to care. The girl maybe gone, but the girl is still here. So close, but so far. All I ever wanted was to hold you in my arms till the end of time and all the happenings that be, truly don't mean enough to me to lose you and fall deeper and deeper down into this cavern of loss pain and suffering. The anxious waiting brings mixed emotion and swinging of tempers from good to bad to nothing at all. I am just a man without you im a man without a soul. Beleive me when I say that I LOVE YOU. And dont be sad when I'm sad. Just know that I'm not sad becouse of you, but I am sad becouse I can't be with you. You don't make me sad, I make myself sad by thinking about how and why and what I've done to drive myself from you, and not seeing you makes me sad, and the thought of you with someone makes me die a little, but it's not you that makes me sad, it's me not having you that I happen to get sad by my love.

So I will end this long awaited entry of many moons, and wish upon a grave to take me before my soul is completely gone and Everything ever known to me means nothing anymore.

yours truly,
Mister Saphire