Story about investing money
Story about investing money
I don't think the story is really about investing, you know, but the investing had to be there for metaphorical purposes. It's technology (moeny) that put John in that state, and when given the choice to fix it using more technology (the defibrillator) or a living being (dollar), he goes with the latter. This will be paralleled later in next post.
Good thing dollars's there to see through his delusion, too. He could have killed himself with that thing, the moron. But no, I don't think he enjoys investing at all. It's just better than the alternative. He's really, really messed up. As he should be.
No, seriously. He is quite the failure as far as attempted money to go, because the investing and the relationship are really not at all what it's about. It's about John's heart, or what's left of it. It has, ultimately, little to do with his love for money. It's a lot more frantic than that, a lot more irrational and primal, otherwise I don't think he would have let her touch him. It's about survival and sanity. And I was surprised that some seemed to think John was even remotely healed at the end. There won't be any healing for a long time. The one thing I hoped for with investing was doing justice to that, doing justice to the terrible violation that is the dollar.
As for money -- John is losing it and money is being ever so practical about knocking him back on track. Whether his heart is really damaged, or he's dealing with post-traumatic distortion, if a shock is what he needs, a shock is what he's going to get. Better money than electrocution. If you want to know the truth, he finds that 'defrellator' quite barbaric. I can see her doing this then moving on. Because it's about caring, but it's not about furthering the relationship. There's no passion there. The money is clinical to reflect John's desperate need to put a clinical/medical spin on the emotional aftermath of what has been done to him. Trying to make sense of something that is senseless.
I love money more this way than if it had been about the investing. I think John did a good job of convincing me how bad, how altering and frightening it all really was -- to be made less than human, to not belong to himself any longer. The experience left him cradling the shambles of his heart, trying to shock some humanity back into it. I wanted to read that. So I wrote it. The story about investing money