nothing changes on new years day.
"i wonder what will happen"
this phrase kept running through my mind on new years eve...the last day of 1999. i was at my house with most of my family members sitting on the livingroom floor. i was watching the tiny mirrors spin on "the ball" as it descended slowly to meet times square just like the years before. someone made a remark about dick clark and his infamous ability to elude age. i felt the comfort that i usually do being near my loved ones, but deep inside i felt uncertainty too. for a couple years now i had half feared and half anticipated the results of a worldwide rumor. Y2K would wreak havoc on the entire world when the clock struck twelve and the world would be changed.
5,4,3,2,1...i waited...and nothing happened. it was almost a dissapointment. even though i had alot of fun that night i went to bed with thinking "all this time wondering...for that? how boring"
not long into that year i thought to myself "2003..that's the year i graduate, it seems so far away."
5,4,3,2,1...i cant even remember what i was doing when 2003 came. probably with my family again, thinking about the next few months and how id get through my senior year. i found myself saying "wow that came quick" and then back to "i wonder what will happen".
when 2006 came i think it was the first year i really did nothing with my family for new years. i celebrated with one new friend and alot of her friends, in a place i was completely out of place in, some club in detroit. but i didnt mind it because i was excited about my future. this fairly new friend was sitting close by me and through all of the noise and music we watched dick clark. the age finally caught him that year, his speech was alot slower from the stroke he recently had. eventually people forgot about the tv again and danced more. but me not being much of a dancer nor a drinker, i decided to sit a few songs out. mash came on tv and i grinned and thought "i wonder what this year will be like"
the first few hours of 2007 have already gone by now. im spending this year at work reading my past lj entries. im not with my family, and the friend i had last year is nothing but past to me now. i find the results of things once exciting can sometimes still end up boring, but still im thinking "2007? where did the other years go?". this is the first year ive really looked back more than forward, and its scary.
its just a part of life, we race to the collect the next memory until we have a mess of past that we often forget and sometimes dont even enjoy as much as we really shouldve. hopefully ill learn this year to appreciate the memories as much as i appreciate the thrill of the future. not every moment will be worth the hype sure, but its time, and our time is limited, so enjoy it.
"i wonder what will happen"
this phrase kept running through my mind on new years eve...the last day of 1999. i was at my house with most of my family members sitting on the livingroom floor. i was watching the tiny mirrors spin on "the ball" as it descended slowly to meet times square just like the years before. someone made a remark about dick clark and his infamous ability to elude age. i felt the comfort that i usually do being near my loved ones, but deep inside i felt uncertainty too. for a couple years now i had half feared and half anticipated the results of a worldwide rumor. Y2K would wreak havoc on the entire world when the clock struck twelve and the world would be changed.
5,4,3,2,1...i waited...and nothing happened. it was almost a dissapointment. even though i had alot of fun that night i went to bed with thinking "all this time wondering...for that? how boring"
not long into that year i thought to myself "2003..that's the year i graduate, it seems so far away."
5,4,3,2,1...i cant even remember what i was doing when 2003 came. probably with my family again, thinking about the next few months and how id get through my senior year. i found myself saying "wow that came quick" and then back to "i wonder what will happen".
when 2006 came i think it was the first year i really did nothing with my family for new years. i celebrated with one new friend and alot of her friends, in a place i was completely out of place in, some club in detroit. but i didnt mind it because i was excited about my future. this fairly new friend was sitting close by me and through all of the noise and music we watched dick clark. the age finally caught him that year, his speech was alot slower from the stroke he recently had. eventually people forgot about the tv again and danced more. but me not being much of a dancer nor a drinker, i decided to sit a few songs out. mash came on tv and i grinned and thought "i wonder what this year will be like"
the first few hours of 2007 have already gone by now. im spending this year at work reading my past lj entries. im not with my family, and the friend i had last year is nothing but past to me now. i find the results of things once exciting can sometimes still end up boring, but still im thinking "2007? where did the other years go?". this is the first year ive really looked back more than forward, and its scary.
its just a part of life, we race to the collect the next memory until we have a mess of past that we often forget and sometimes dont even enjoy as much as we really shouldve. hopefully ill learn this year to appreciate the memories as much as i appreciate the thrill of the future. not every moment will be worth the hype sure, but its time, and our time is limited, so enjoy it.
"i wonder what will happen"