I think I want to become a Monk.
Yeah, Friday, I saw Erick add me back on MSN, I was happy, believing I could speak to him again.
I wave him yesturday, no answer. Then, I ask him why he add me.
His reply was immediate: it was a " msn bug" that he had "absolute no intention to speak to me in a "near future".
I feel pretty bad.
I've lost a lot in this damn depression. And I'm not finish yet with with it.
It's piss me off that Erick and Hugo says that my transion is responsible for the fact that I'm in depression.
I kind of freak out because I got the guenuine impression that love and sexuality is over for me.
I kind of freak out as well because I think it's going to be more and more harder to makes friends and keep them...
I feel it be almost nice for 5 years to just live as a monk in a community. Meditate and pray. Prepare food together, work hard and not being the only one who will not get love or sexuality... I feel a bit alone.
I wave him yesturday, no answer. Then, I ask him why he add me.
His reply was immediate: it was a " msn bug" that he had "absolute no intention to speak to me in a "near future".
I feel pretty bad.
I've lost a lot in this damn depression. And I'm not finish yet with with it.
It's piss me off that Erick and Hugo says that my transion is responsible for the fact that I'm in depression.
I kind of freak out because I got the guenuine impression that love and sexuality is over for me.
I kind of freak out as well because I think it's going to be more and more harder to makes friends and keep them...
I feel it be almost nice for 5 years to just live as a monk in a community. Meditate and pray. Prepare food together, work hard and not being the only one who will not get love or sexuality... I feel a bit alone.