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Wazzup to my Livejournal Buddies :)
As usual, there has been a big lapse in my postings. So I'm gonna write a few lines just cuz i havn't done it in so long. Today was pretty cool, I swung by the street fair with my buds, Ying, Gayl, Jessie, and Alex. We walked around and "window shopped", then had lunch at this new place on 4th avenue that serves really humongous sandwiches. I had a great time with them. Then I went to the Saturday coffee group thingy that I usually attend. I hung out there a few hours, drank too much coffee, and here I am.
During coffee, one guy posed this question to the group: "If you could have God change one aspect of you, physically, mentally or otherwise, what would it be?" There were several interesting answers. One of the guys, Michael, said that he would wish for a pair of wings. I thought that was a cool answer. I sometimes dream about flying, except it is really more like swimming through the air.
I honestly couldn't say what I would wish for, so I did my usual thing and came up with some funny bullshit. I wished for a prehensile penis. It's not that I didn't know what I would wish for, as usual, I just had difficulty putting it into words.
I wish for the ability to take action. I'm so guilty of thinking and not doing, listening and not speaking, worrying and not trying. The answer seems so simple, just do it. But that is not my nature, and I'm starting to believe that old addage "you can't teach an old dog new tricks". So used to putting off writing that paper until the night before its due, calling it a night instead of staying up and practicing, having a crush and not even flirting, I feel like I bullshit my way through life. That is not to say that my life up to this point has been a total waste, it hasn't. I just think that my fear of taking action is my Achilles' heel. It has crippled me from being as happy as I can be. I know simply trying doesn't guarantee success, but at least I'd know I gave it one hundred percent.
Do I get three wishes? If so I'm stuck with a wrap-around penis, I'm a total go-getter, and I still have one more wish left. Hmmmm how about those wings, would be cool to be able to morph into an eagle whenever I want.
I've gone through a lot this past month. Only now that the semester is coming to a halt am I getting a few free moments to reflect. So please excuse this psycho-babble. There will be more to come later, hehe.
Because of the street fair craziness, I parked really far away, at park and sixth. Michael offered to walk me to my ride. How sweet of him. We just jabbered about Harry Pooter as we walked, and I gave him a lift the rest of the way to his place. He's a really nice guy and I'm glad to have him as a bud.
Despite all the soul-searching, I'd say today was a really good day :)
As usual, there has been a big lapse in my postings. So I'm gonna write a few lines just cuz i havn't done it in so long. Today was pretty cool, I swung by the street fair with my buds, Ying, Gayl, Jessie, and Alex. We walked around and "window shopped", then had lunch at this new place on 4th avenue that serves really humongous sandwiches. I had a great time with them. Then I went to the Saturday coffee group thingy that I usually attend. I hung out there a few hours, drank too much coffee, and here I am.
During coffee, one guy posed this question to the group: "If you could have God change one aspect of you, physically, mentally or otherwise, what would it be?" There were several interesting answers. One of the guys, Michael, said that he would wish for a pair of wings. I thought that was a cool answer. I sometimes dream about flying, except it is really more like swimming through the air.
I honestly couldn't say what I would wish for, so I did my usual thing and came up with some funny bullshit. I wished for a prehensile penis. It's not that I didn't know what I would wish for, as usual, I just had difficulty putting it into words.
I wish for the ability to take action. I'm so guilty of thinking and not doing, listening and not speaking, worrying and not trying. The answer seems so simple, just do it. But that is not my nature, and I'm starting to believe that old addage "you can't teach an old dog new tricks". So used to putting off writing that paper until the night before its due, calling it a night instead of staying up and practicing, having a crush and not even flirting, I feel like I bullshit my way through life. That is not to say that my life up to this point has been a total waste, it hasn't. I just think that my fear of taking action is my Achilles' heel. It has crippled me from being as happy as I can be. I know simply trying doesn't guarantee success, but at least I'd know I gave it one hundred percent.
Do I get three wishes? If so I'm stuck with a wrap-around penis, I'm a total go-getter, and I still have one more wish left. Hmmmm how about those wings, would be cool to be able to morph into an eagle whenever I want.
I've gone through a lot this past month. Only now that the semester is coming to a halt am I getting a few free moments to reflect. So please excuse this psycho-babble. There will be more to come later, hehe.
Because of the street fair craziness, I parked really far away, at park and sixth. Michael offered to walk me to my ride. How sweet of him. We just jabbered about Harry Pooter as we walked, and I gave him a lift the rest of the way to his place. He's a really nice guy and I'm glad to have him as a bud.
Despite all the soul-searching, I'd say today was a really good day :)