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[mistakethis525]

idk why i'm so angry right now.
I just want everything to fucking
vanish.
I'm single, lonely.
i've always got to put a fucking
happy face on for friends, customers, peers.
I've turned into the very thing i used to despise.
Things were less complicated when i was younger.
When i was less exposed,
when i was ignorant to the world.
***

Now that i know how life is
i want to kick the bucket
and lose it
chase me away
bc i wont be back
fuck this shell
life has turned to hell

the information highway
has left me dry
and all this attention
has left a tear in my eye
i've mad mistakes
i've done things wrong
i've taken hits
but i wont fall.

Now that i know how life is
i want to kick the bucket
and lose it
chase me away
bc i wont be back
fuck this shell
life has turned to hell

Verse after verse
apparate in my head
magical feelings
my heart is fed

tired of this
beating noise in my mind
fuck this shit
i'll die with my kind.

backwashed words are said and passed
wish away this life and end its craft
making people
losing people
faking people
wasting people

internet hope and glamour are lost
friends on the other side have begin to fall
losing touch with who i used to be
losing touch with me

soul eating beast leap from the closet
molesting my inner child
fucking my innocence and leaving me mild.

fucktheseliesandthepeopleidispise.

~BEn