Skool............BOREING
yesterday had to be one of the funnest days in a long time. me, christina, kirby, and tom whent sleding drunk. me and christina rolled down the hill and i ran in to her and hit her foot and then tom comes down the hill on the sled tryin to hit us or something. the hill was a bitch to climb up but it sure was worth the climb lol. on the way to the top the first time it was me and tom cuz kirby and christina stayed in the van for a min and this lil kid goes down the hill where all the trees are and ran right into a tree it wass great. kirby and christina are pose to pick me up on there lucn break so hopefully they dont forget lol. well brandie and mike are finally moved out all the way. it makes me sad and i've been depressed that they've moves b/c i could go and talk to them ecspeacally brandie about n=e thing. i looked at her as my best friend, a mother, and a sister. i could go and talk to her about n-e thing. i cry when i talk to n-e of them and i hate walking past the apartment and see it empty. yeah i can call her on the phone and talk to her or i could just go to her house, but it's not goin to be the same. i wanna be able to walk down stairs and knock on the door or even just walk right on in. brandie knew about me than n-e one of my friends did and even knew more than wut my mom does. i talked to her about boy problems, love problems, we talked about everthing!! her and mike tought me love form lust, and wut too watch out for. they tought me shit to watch out for in life cuz they've been were i am now they have done and did the shit im doin now. i could go and talk to brandie and tell her my darkest secrets and she wouldnt
judge mer for them or tell a sole, or look at me in a diffrent way. i know i can go and talk to christina, kat, ally, kirby or n-e one of my friends but i just cant for some reason. it's hard to say it and talk to them like i did with brandie. she was there for me when no one was there for me and when i had no one to turn too. i wish i could of did something in return cuz she has done so much for me and made me look for a positve thing when something goes wrong. i dunno wuts wrong with me i just get depressed outta the blue for no damn reason. but ill get over it some day. all i wanna say is that ill miss her and i hope she knows that and thank you for every thing u have done for me.
n-e ways i dunno wut imma do today but wuts new with that i never know till i do it. but yeah......imma a lil dizy and shit. christina got me to zanys yesterday and i danm!! lol i took 1 and a 1/2 cuz i didnt wanna be to fucked up so i took the rest of te half this morning. i am starting to feel it now. i have to do something in return for u christina for all the shit u have don for me and it might take awhile but i will do it and im not joking about that!! damn this is getting pretty long i have only been writing this for like 5 mins. hmmmm......i wanna do some thing this weekend but i dont know wut yet. all i know is that i just wanna have fun and be happy. every one to be happy. well imma go and finish this work so i can get it done and over with. well accually i dont have to do n-e work cuz he give me grades on doin this thing which is cool so...............man i didnt think 1/2 a zany could do this to ya lol. well i still have alil bit of my apple juice speacile drink left soo yeah i just wanna be relaxed and comfrotable.
OH!!!! guys i am so proud of my self! i can fit into some pants i have been able to fit in to in awhile. yeah i could fit in them but i really couldnt buttom them and wasnt able to breath in them...and now i can button them and fit!!!!! my speacile diet is working!!! i didnt think it would work but it did yay!!!!!:) :) :)
n-e ways.....ALLY how did u like work last night and u never called me back bitch!! j/k well u and kat or just u call me later and we can chill like a villian lol. im such a fuckin dork.
my mind is goin blank so imma go reak evry one eleses journal so i can leave a comment if there important.....no im just kidding.
start leaveing comments ppl no one does it no more. wut u too good for me?!?! lol
man.....when u go home a lil tipsy and every one is sleeping and ur the only one moving around making noise it's freaky.......lol
well i love u all and see some of u soon.
luve always and forever,
lucie~lu