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dont get me wrong.. I believe everyone deserves to be in love.. just as I am in with Ian.. I'll even be the first to admit that- no one captivates me like he has.. and without that feeling.. I feel that there is nothing worth another night..
but recently I read that so many people.. women.. have been admost forcing themselves to be in love.. but.. they are missing the whole point of it.. all of the pleasant suprises.. and what good is it to be in love with someone that isnt in love with you?
I've been through that.. and I'd rather to have never woken up after a full night of crying because I longed for a man who was in another girl's bed.. and not mine.. I understand that shit happens..
I also know that Ian maybe not be the person that I am going to spend the rest of my life with.. but I do understand the feeling of right now.. and I know what it's like to sacrifice everything for someone to be happy.. I know what it's like to save your every penny just so you cansee them every chance you get..
and I know what it's like to cry at night.. because you feel as if they let you down.. and feel ridiculous about it in the morning when they call to appologize.. and I know what it's liek to cry from happiness in their arms.. and I wish I could stop time.. and make those moments last forever..
I wish I could record my feelings.. and I wish I could play it for everyone.. just so that they could comprehend on how lucky I am.. how every sacrifice I've given.. every tear I've shed.. was well worth it.. because look at us now..
(sorry public journal equals only a thumbnail)
but recently I read that so many people.. women.. have been admost forcing themselves to be in love.. but.. they are missing the whole point of it.. all of the pleasant suprises.. and what good is it to be in love with someone that isnt in love with you?
I've been through that.. and I'd rather to have never woken up after a full night of crying because I longed for a man who was in another girl's bed.. and not mine.. I understand that shit happens..
I also know that Ian maybe not be the person that I am going to spend the rest of my life with.. but I do understand the feeling of right now.. and I know what it's like to sacrifice everything for someone to be happy.. I know what it's like to save your every penny just so you cansee them every chance you get..
and I know what it's like to cry at night.. because you feel as if they let you down.. and feel ridiculous about it in the morning when they call to appologize.. and I know what it's liek to cry from happiness in their arms.. and I wish I could stop time.. and make those moments last forever..
I wish I could record my feelings.. and I wish I could play it for everyone.. just so that they could comprehend on how lucky I am.. how every sacrifice I've given.. every tear I've shed.. was well worth it.. because look at us now..
(sorry public journal equals only a thumbnail)