Can’t sleep
I’m up again late when I should be sleeping. Trying to sleep. Been in bed for three and a half hours. Instead I’m sitting here thinking about things I have no control over. Things that make me concerned, namely how the hell we’re living in a world where people can straight-faced say they don’t like either candidate for president but that they’re going to vote for the businessman because his economic policy is more proven than hers. Or that they’ll proudly vote for the convicted felon over the lying bitch.
????
Earlier this year I hosted my cousin and uncle from out of town and had to endure my cousin evangelizing how he only trusts two things: “My lord Christ Jesus, and Trump”. Then he goes on to ask me about how my city is handling the homeless population since it looks like they’re doing a good job cleaning it up and whether there’s much evidence of White Flight going on.
I don’t even know what to think anymore when the news suggests there’s an even tie between the two candidates.
Before I exiled myself from
Facebook my uncle-in-law tried to school me about how you have to respect the office of president even if you don’t like Trump, that I had to refer to him as “President Trump” all the while ignoring the fact that Trump himself repeatedly vilified people who didn’t agree with him, particularly directing his anger and punching downward on people who had no ability to affect his policies or decisions; ordinary citizens. He doesnt WANT to be a president for everyone.
What does it take to look at this man and think that we’ll be okay if he’s allowed back into office again? Delusion? An aggressive belief that burning it all down is better than letting things continue as they have? Do his supporters actively desire civil war? Do they believe that such an event is going to be a boon for them, or that their interests won’t suffer as a result? Or do they just not think that civil war won’t / can’t happen?
I don’t like thinking about this. I don’t want to be awake looking at my phone and doomscrolling. I’ve got problems enough of my own to be preoccupied with. But I feel like I’m on the titanic with a bunch of people loudly proclaiming that the iceberg isn’t really there while others are actively rooting for the sinking.
????
Earlier this year I hosted my cousin and uncle from out of town and had to endure my cousin evangelizing how he only trusts two things: “My lord Christ Jesus, and Trump”. Then he goes on to ask me about how my city is handling the homeless population since it looks like they’re doing a good job cleaning it up and whether there’s much evidence of White Flight going on.
I don’t even know what to think anymore when the news suggests there’s an even tie between the two candidates.
Before I exiled myself from
Facebook my uncle-in-law tried to school me about how you have to respect the office of president even if you don’t like Trump, that I had to refer to him as “President Trump” all the while ignoring the fact that Trump himself repeatedly vilified people who didn’t agree with him, particularly directing his anger and punching downward on people who had no ability to affect his policies or decisions; ordinary citizens. He doesnt WANT to be a president for everyone.
What does it take to look at this man and think that we’ll be okay if he’s allowed back into office again? Delusion? An aggressive belief that burning it all down is better than letting things continue as they have? Do his supporters actively desire civil war? Do they believe that such an event is going to be a boon for them, or that their interests won’t suffer as a result? Or do they just not think that civil war won’t / can’t happen?
I don’t like thinking about this. I don’t want to be awake looking at my phone and doomscrolling. I’ve got problems enough of my own to be preoccupied with. But I feel like I’m on the titanic with a bunch of people loudly proclaiming that the iceberg isn’t really there while others are actively rooting for the sinking.