seeking acknowledgement...
U know what pisses me off about the whole Nate and I thing? I still haven't gotten that acknowledgement from him and for some reason, I still have that lil part of my open still because of that. This fool thinks I want him to pay my phone bill just so I can gloat or whatever. No. I want him to pay it for 2 reasons. 1-I cannot afford to pay it myself. I'm about two months behind on my credit card bill and my cell phone bill is past due. I also have no groceries in my house. Normally, I'm a very self sufficient man but this isgetting to be ridiculous. I got the damn phone bill from calling YOU. It's only YOUR number on the bill, so c'mon. and it's so sad that this alone shows how little trust we have between us. You would think by now he would know that I don't just go around asking for help, I usually take care of shit myself. I could rant and rant about things right now but I'm not even going to bother. No offense, but it's no one's business and i don't feel like I have to explain anything to anyone.
...Man o man what is it with people commenting on me lately? I've heard from so many stupid ass white people that I'm a "race traitor" and a "n" word lover and all this ridiculous bullshit from these racist, trashy assholes. I'm really sick of it. People need to stop focusing on other people and fix their own shit. DON"T WORRY ABOUT ME, I"M DOIN ME. YOU SHOULD DO YOU!
And I've also decided that the name Nate is synonymous with wrong. lol. Last weekend I went on a date with this guy who's name is also Nathaniel. and OMG it was just awful. Wasn't feelin the vibe at all. So I was a man about it, I told him I just didn't think we meshed well. Well, this cat has been UP MY ASS ever since, it's ridiculous...he wrote me this big long ass email...
Date: Oct 3, 2005 8:04 AM Flag spam/abuse. [ ? ]
Subject: Hey
I'm sorry, I miss you. You probably don't believe me since you feel that way. But it's true. I know I like you and I just don't get how quick things changed on your end. I feel like a loser right now, because I'm so upset about this and probably shouldn't be. But I seriously thought that something good would have come out of this. I wish you could/would give me and you a chance. Well all I can say is I tried. I truly apologize to you for messing anything up. You know how I feel about you, and if you do change your mind you know I am here. Hope you are having a good day. Talk to you soon.
-Nathaniel
Man. It's almost like I'm seeing things from Nate's eyes now. Funny how life does that to ya. lol. Neway, I gotta get back to work. lol
...Man o man what is it with people commenting on me lately? I've heard from so many stupid ass white people that I'm a "race traitor" and a "n" word lover and all this ridiculous bullshit from these racist, trashy assholes. I'm really sick of it. People need to stop focusing on other people and fix their own shit. DON"T WORRY ABOUT ME, I"M DOIN ME. YOU SHOULD DO YOU!
And I've also decided that the name Nate is synonymous with wrong. lol. Last weekend I went on a date with this guy who's name is also Nathaniel. and OMG it was just awful. Wasn't feelin the vibe at all. So I was a man about it, I told him I just didn't think we meshed well. Well, this cat has been UP MY ASS ever since, it's ridiculous...he wrote me this big long ass email...
Date: Oct 3, 2005 8:04 AM Flag spam/abuse. [ ? ]
Subject: Hey
I'm sorry, I miss you. You probably don't believe me since you feel that way. But it's true. I know I like you and I just don't get how quick things changed on your end. I feel like a loser right now, because I'm so upset about this and probably shouldn't be. But I seriously thought that something good would have come out of this. I wish you could/would give me and you a chance. Well all I can say is I tried. I truly apologize to you for messing anything up. You know how I feel about you, and if you do change your mind you know I am here. Hope you are having a good day. Talk to you soon.
-Nathaniel
Man. It's almost like I'm seeing things from Nate's eyes now. Funny how life does that to ya. lol. Neway, I gotta get back to work. lol