stop n go

[mistah_easy]

Lawd Jesus. I don't understand the two of us. One minute we good, he be talkin 'bout oh yeah, everyone knows how I feel for Tim, he's the one for me blah blah blah. Next minute "Oh we friends now" n he be reading these im's from these dudes tryna put claim on him. Then he fall asleep wit me on the phone like we used to...and then he wanna act like he aint even do it on purpose. It's like AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh WHAT is going on? It's so frustrating cuz for awhile, I really didn't care. And now I care. It's like I don't wanna start over. Cuz then u gotta go thru all kinds of bullshit and it's not that it would be hard because let's face it y'all, I'm a fine ass man, but it's such a hassle. I found someone who I feel I mesh very well with. Physically and emotionally. and it's like why do I have to keep going thru this bullshit? Just so I don't have to be alone? I think I'd rather be alone! If I'm gonna have to fight bitches and stress over nights wonderin where this mofo is and who he talkin to and what he tellin 'em then I'd rather be all by myself because there is NO man worth all that. Nelly aint worth that. lol. N I was so proud of myself for finally just letting go...but then I done sucked msyelf back in. lol. So who knows. If we can get along for three days, I think we should try and make it happen again. Of course he's gotta be willing to give up some of the bullshi that he be doin and I need to learn to just chill the fuck out but I think if we want it, it'll work. and if we don't get along for these three days, well my towel's already half thrown-in as it is. So I guess that's the way the cookie crumbles...

Stop
Go
just move slow with it or
Let
Go
and enjoy the moment
Stop
Go
So confusing that I
Don't
Know
I think I wanna explode
~Faith Evans