The Battle of Two
“He was asking about you.”
Jessica touched Seohyun’s shoulder softly. The younger girl sighed softly. She swung her body around, leaning to the railing she was putting her hands before.
“I don’t understand why.”
The older girl shook her head. Seohyun was behaving difficult, but she could not blame her. If she was in her position, she might do the same.
Might be. Because she was not Seohyun, soft spoken and pure heart, who could not expressed herself clearly. And she would never fall to someone like the evil maknae of Super Junior.
That’s right. Kyuhyun and Seohyun. They’re real. But it didn’t mean they’re together.
In spite of all members of both groups supports, they had not admitted to each other. Because Seohyun was too reserve. While Kyuhyun, believe it or not, was too shy.
“Isn’t that crystal clear, Hyunnie? That man is clearly worshipping you. He is never calm when you are around.”
“He is not comfortable with me, Unnie. He may know how I feel. I may be too naive.” Seohyun brushed her cheeks when she felt teardrops already formed streams on them.
Jessica pulled her to her arms. She was as frustrated as the others with these two, but she also know her dongsaeng very well. Pressure her and she’ll run.
That’s the irony, Hyunnie. Everyone else may see it, but he’s not. He thinks you are avoiding him.
*****
“Kyu, you’re spacing again.”
Siwon moved his hand in front of the maknae’s face. Kyuhyun shook his head in exasperation. There, again, in the middle of a very loud and crowded party, his mind wandered to the land where only her would exist.
The girl whom his world were centered in. But she didn’t know. In fact, she avoided him. And that’s hurt. Especially when hearing her name only could make him lost all of his concentration.
He did asking each Soshi girl that he saw of her whereabouts. And when he was sure they knew, every girl would just shake their head and told him they would tell her that he was looking for her.
As if she would find him after she heard that. Likely, she would be hiding in a more difficult place to be found.
“Have you seen her, Hyung?”
Siwon looked at him with apologetic eyes. The older knew who “she” was. It was clear as a glass how Kyuhyun’s feeling toward Seohyun. His eyes always focused at her, only her, when she around. And his mind would always evolve on her being, only her, when she was not with them.
Always treated Kyuhyun as his lost long little brother, it hurts him to see the usually witty and happy maknae in this condition. But just like all of his other members felt, he could not do anything to interfering Kyuhyun’s love life.
But at least he could tell him where she was.
“I saw her ten minutes ago talking to Sica on the balcony. But she may be....” He hadn’t finished his sentences when Kyuhyun rushed to the direction of the balcony.
Oh dear, I hope he could find her tonight. I don’t think I would able to watch his heartbreak again.
*****
Seohyun sneaked from the back door of the building. She knew he’s here. And tonight she didn’t have the strength to watch him and all the girls that revolved around him.
Not that she was jealous with them, especially the one he always told everyone was his best friend, but she felt a pang in her heart every time she saw them. Because she knew she wasn’t like them.
She had predicted this nightmare when the stage director told her that she would do a duet with him. With him, the man that she had a crush with since they shoot that music video. And she wanted so much to reject it. But her stupid heart betrayed her, because deep down, she really wanted to be with him, to experience some time alone with him. To have his attention only for her.
Was that too much to ask?
It was strange. Had him held her hand on every stage. When he was never set eyes on her outside their duets. Although she had to admit that on their last two stages, Tokyo and New York, every time she turned her head around, he would be near.
Near but never with her. Even when his hold on her hand on their duets became tighter and tighter throughout the time.
What it too much to hope that he thought of them more than fan service?
Dream on, Hyunnie, there is no them.
She walked slowly to the park to look for the bench where once, a year ago, they were talking in private when she accidently found him sat there by himself.
He said he was daydreaming at that time, although he didn’t want to say who. I wonder if he still daydreaming today and if it is the same girl. How lucky this girl is!
*****
Kyuhyun rushed to the balcony while trying to calm his heartbeat.
Oh God, let me see her. Even if she runs again. I can’t stand not to see or hear her anymore.
But he came to an empty balcony. Upset, he punched the railing. Tears were suddenly welled in his eyes. He had missed her again. She was so close. Why was fate this cruel to him that he always lost a chance to be with her, the only person that he ever be in love?
He also cursed himself for being so coward. He had a year with some exclusive time with her. That’s true, it was work-related, fan servicing, but he had all the privilege to sit with her, to talk and laugh with her. To hold her hand.
He realized that he’s been holding her hand tighter and tighter through time, because he could sense her growing comfortable around him. And he was able to come out from his nervousness and evolved around her in their ending stages.
He thought she must now by now that he wanted them to be more than fan service.
Jessica, who was just coming back to watch upon her dongsaeng who she know would go to that bench, again, saw this desperate gesture.
I am sorry Hyunnie, but this is already too much.
“Oppa, what are you doing here?”
Kyuhyun wiped the drops that stubbornly fell to his cheeks. His voice was hoarse when he answered.
“Hi Sica, I just need some air.”
Jessica moved to his side, purposely avoid looking at his face.
“There may be a better air in the park, Oppa.”
Kyuhyun’s eyebrows furrowed. He peeked at the calm girl beside her.
“What do you mean?”
She pointed out to a figure that walked slowly to the park. Kyuhyun’s heart beating that fast again.
Is she going to our bench?
He smiled to the girl and patted her back as a thank you gesture.
“You may be right, Sica.”
Then he ran to the stairs, taking two stairs at one time.
Go Oppa! Go. Save both of you’s hearts.
*****
Seohyun sat in the bench while touching it carefully. Reminiscing a year ago when he suddenly hold her hand and told her about his dream of his future. She was hoping he would tell her about the girl that had made him daydreaming. It would be hurt but at least it would stop her from wishing. That someday he would see her differently. Not only a dongsaeng.
“You must be the most difficult person to be found.”
She startled. He’s here.
She’s here. He sat beside her. Not asking permission as usual. Because he was worried that she would run again if he did so.
His resolution was fixed. Nothing would prevent him to have some time with her. To keep her with him even only for a while. To have her listen to what he would say. The words that he wanted to say to her a year ago at the same bench. If he was not that little coward.
“What are you doing here, Oppa?”
She tried to keep a poker face. But she knew she was slowly broken again. Tears were already threatened to drop again.
“Am I that bad, Joohyunnie?’
She stunned. What the hell he meant about?
Suddenly tired of their cat and dog game, he lifted her chin up and stared directly to her eyes.
“Why did you avoiding me?”
Me, avoiding him? What?
She shook her head, freed her chin from his hand.
“I don’t know what you talking about, Oppa.”
She shifted her gaze to the tree in front of them.
“Liar.”
His cold voice startled her and made her turned her gaze back to him.
Oh, My. What will I do? I can’t think properly when she is this close. Sorry, Hyunnie.
And he cupped her cheeks and kissed her.
He kisses me!
Seohyun was shocking. That’s true. But she could not resist the urge to be in his arms. So she unconsciously closed her eyes and kissed back.
She kisses me back!
Kyuhyun smiled within the kiss. His hyungs were right. He just need to be blunt sometimes. Why he didn’t do this a year ago?
But she may respond differently.
She tore her lips to take a breath. But she didn't move away.
Why so stupid, Hyunnie? Run!
He leaned his forehead to hers. Smiling so wide, he cupped her cheeks again.
“You’re a bad liar.”
Her eyes wider.
“But you are my liar. My lovely liar.” He kissed her nose.
“Oppa.”
He looked right through her eyes and mouthed slowly.
“ I...Love...You...”
Tears that welled in her eyes finally fell down. But this time it was a happy tears. Yet, because she is Seohyun, her brain always took control first.
“Why Oppa?”
He sighed in exasperation.
“Why falling in love has to have reason?”
She nodded.
“Yeah I guess you right.”
One of his eyebrow was raised.
“Uh, yeah, I love you too.”
He laughed and pulled her into a tight hug. She put her head in his chest. Listening to the fast-beat of his heart. He kissed her hair and lingered there for a while.
“So that’s why you avoiding me?”
“Do you need to ask?”
He chuckled.
“No, I don’t”
“Good.”
“Good.”
Then she suddenly remembered something.
“Oppa, who the girl you’ve been day dreaming about last year?”
He smiled.
“Do you need to ask?”
“Oh!”
“Yeah”
“So you’re a liar too.”
“And you believed it? My hyungs and your unnies didn’t.”
“I was brokenhearted, Oppa.”
“Me too.”
“And you’re the man. So you should stand up first.”
“I know. I was a brokenhearted coward, Baby.”
“Baby?”
“You don’t like it?”
“No, I like it.”
“Good.”
“Good”
“Hyunnie?”
“Hmm?”
“Shut up?”
“Why?”
And then he kissed her. And kissed her. And kissed her.
Because that would be the only way he could shut her mouth nicely.
*****
I miss my friends in AFF.
This is the first fic posted directly in LJ.
I hope AFF run well again soon.