regret..

[missysabigloser]

you know what the worst feeling in the world is....it is regret....it is worst than any feeling ever known...you just have that knowledge that you could have done it differently or gone about it differently and it just sucks...knowing you could have had such a better time doing something a different way or actually doing it ....not getting something you really want...telling something the wrong thing at the wrong time.....there is nothing you can do about it...you just sit there and think and think and think about and the more you think about it the more you regret it and the more you hate yourself for it...i wonder if this is why some people kill themselves....i mean people say they have a good life then why do they do it....does the regret just eat away at them to a point where they no longer can take it and figure the only way to get rid of it is by taking there own life....even in the aftermath there is still regret within the family...they regret that there child did such an unforgetable thing and regret that they didn't do anything to help them or regret that they are gone because they would have had such a good time with them....regret is every where and is what everyone does....how can someone not regret though.....how can you go through a life time without regret...i think it is impossible....i use to believe anything was possible but regret...well it is impossible....i just wish i knew a way to take back everything that i have ever said or done that i regret.....that would be SO much better....then when someone asks when i am 110 if i lived a happy life i know i will say yes but with no regrets what so ever being in my life i can say i had the perfect life people just wish for....that would be a good goal but i don't think it would work unfortunatly......i guess that is what life is made up of...good friends, family, a boyfriend/girlfriend, a husband/wife, adventures, music, movies, tv, technology, and regret...i know i know food and drink but that is an obvious one.....did you know that regret means sorrow aroused by circumstances beyond one's control or power to repair....why can't we repair it...we have to repair...i am determined to repair my regrets even though i know it is IMPOSSIBLE to fix.....i guess we will never know what to do with the feeling of regret...one thing i know i won't regret though is if everyone lives life to the fullest and just takes things as they come to you...then i know that life has done you some good and that will make me happuy :)....love you all bunches

PS- gregory i am sorry for saying the things i did......i don't mean them......i love you!!!! :)

no one worry i didn't break up with him and i don't feel it is something i should tell you so please don't ask.............