for you i'd bleed myself dry.
today is the first morning in a very long time that ive woken up and immediately thought of how i was getting more booze. saw the lowell lockmonsters last night.hockey and friends make me happy. rosemary, sexual, and 8 cup made it all the more amusing. watched some street hockey and drank myself silly in hopes that i would pass out and sleep through the night to set my mind at ease for the time being.. saw the fountain and had to pee. drove to hoyts trying to meet up with stef and cathy but missed them. had to ask the movie theater usher if i could have change and that's not so easy to do when youre drunk. i just wanted to call you. i just couldn't drive home. i decided to drive home alone and made it ok. passed out in my underwear. i honestly thought i would wake up to you sometime in the middle of the night. but instead, my dreams of you made it all the worse.. i thought the booze would aid me until at least noon but i woke up several times, completely alone and very cold. i dont know what to do now. please call. or come over. i would love a hug.