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I saw my tutor on Thurs and discussed what I wanted to do for my dissertation and he said it was a good idea and so yeah I felt like a ton of bricks had been lifted off my shoulders! I'm still worrying about my essays and presentations and what not.
My annotated bibliography has gotta be handed in on monday so I need to be getting on with that! Muchos stressos.
Yesterday I was waiting for a lift from my mum and she just went all weird and told me that she couldn't take me to my bus stop (Bearing in mind people I get up at around 7 and I'm ready to leave the house at 8). There is a bus that comes once every hour at the top of my lane but it is VERY unreliable sometimes it does a no show. So I'd have to catch the 7.20 bus to ensure that I'd get to uni on time cos I couldn't chance getting the 8.20 bus (cos usually the buses never come until quarter to the hour instead of twenty past when they are supposed to be there). So yeah my mum was like why did you just spring this on me now that you wanted a lift? ERM HELLO EVER SINCE I'VE BEEN BACK AT UNI YOU HAVE GIVEN ME A LIFT FOR EVERYDAY I HAVE BEEN IN. So what the fuck was she talking about I was like WHAT YOU sprung this on ME mofo.
Fuck I don't ask for much- I get a lift to my bus stop, I get the bus to town, take the train to uni have a long day at uni, take the train back to town, catch the bus home to the top of my lane (the bus stops running at 5.50pm I KNO what a load of BULLSHIT. If I have missed that bus (which often happens cos sometimes I won't get back into town til after 6pm then I catch a bus and walk the rest of the way home. I do NOT get any lifts home or nothing. However my mum takes my sister to work and picks her up......so I dunno how that works cos my sister could easily catch a bus there and back.
So my mum was proper having a go at me and I didn't even respond cos I just thought FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER. I have it hard enough without you talking shit to me. So I dunno what I'm gonna do about getting to uni because I'll have to be up at 6am and I'm already dead from getting up at 7. She's just being a bitch always on at me to do stuff......telling me to do the dishes when I'm busy doing work for uni and I say no I am busy working and she goes off on one. FUCKER do your own dishes I have WORK to do what's more important my DEGREE or your DISHES? FUCK YOU.
My parents were the ones that pushed me into going to uni in the first place and now they are trying their damdest to make it so hard for me. My dad was the one that encouraged me to stay at home to save money cos it would be free lodgings (homo now charges me £25 a week when he knows I don't have a job) he charges Gemma £25 a week but she had a FULL TIME job so yeah I'd expect that. WANKER.
My mum mentioned something the other day about a 2.1. So now she expects me to get a 2.1 for my degree......thats if I can fucking work after a fucking exhausting day. She expects me to get a 2.1 so she can tell people oh yes Jody got a 2.1 THAT IS ALL SHE CARES ABOUT....well if I stay on at uni and get a degree and she tells people what I got then I'll be like yeah but in no way does this mark reflect greatly on my mother because she didn't help me ONE FUCKING BIT she just threw major obstacles in the way. I don't know what planet she is from. She told me if I didn't like living in the house then I should move out.....yeah like I can afford you prick...........if I move out now then I'm dropping out of uni.
So I am considering my status at the moment.....cos I have no support from home, no financial or you know just general parenting support. But I am in my final year and my 2yrs studying and the money I have spent will have been wasted and that would piss me off. So I want to do this I want to get my degree but I dunno if I'll be able to. I told my parents that if I didn't have any support then I would have to drop out of uni and my Dad was like well I don't care - well then why bloody force me to go? WANKER
So yeah there you go, I'm still alive but drowning in work so my updates will not be that frequent!
Holla.
yeah that was a lot of venting!