2 in 1 day!
I'm still in training and so i have nothing to do for the rest of the day. I was told to serve the web and do nothing until 5 when i can go home. How stupid. But i spent this time reading past journal entries of mine and other people i haven't looked at in forever. I miss my old friend which we will leave nameless as to not make him think i miss him. But i thought, wow he's a dick but i missed what we had. I just like that my memories of him don't hurt nearly as much as other past males in my life. I needed more than he could give as a friend. And i was too good of a friend for him to appreciate. So it did work out. I'm content with the situation. I dont wish him harm nor do i wish him well. I wish him nothing. It's been almost a year since i even thought of him. I have lots of new friends and i enjoy my place in life at the moment. I'm working a lot now which i love. And yet i still have a healthy social life filled with people i generally like. I get to read more and still work on my hobbies like the dreads and other little things. With the extra money i can update my comic collection. Maybe even attend a comic convention in the future. Take a day or 2 off and fly to san fran. It's a shame that i have no more friends that also join in my love of comics as did my past friends. But friends are over-rated. I was once told that by someone and didn't always beleive that. Sometimes they are more trouble than they are worth. But I enjoy having a support system and feeling as though i am needed once in a while.
Sandy and I are done.
Amanda and heidi are done.
Sandy and Heidi were never.
So it looks like officially the clitocracy is finished. I hope the girls know that i love them and our memories. I will treasure that book. I do hope to go back and add things to it. Like little blurbs on events that we did. Nothing has been the same since last summer. In my life everything is short lived. But i did learn alot. I still have Heidi and I still have Amanda but they do not have each other. The 4 of us lead different lives. Maybe some of us will grow up or just let things go or just get over ourselves. I am not directing that to someone specificially. I'm including myself in those statements.
Sandy and I are done.
Amanda and heidi are done.
Sandy and Heidi were never.
So it looks like officially the clitocracy is finished. I hope the girls know that i love them and our memories. I will treasure that book. I do hope to go back and add things to it. Like little blurbs on events that we did. Nothing has been the same since last summer. In my life everything is short lived. But i did learn alot. I still have Heidi and I still have Amanda but they do not have each other. The 4 of us lead different lives. Maybe some of us will grow up or just let things go or just get over ourselves. I am not directing that to someone specificially. I'm including myself in those statements.