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I think I've grown up since 2003. when I graduated from highschool, I'd never had a good dating experience, I didn't really have many friends, and I think i've learned how to be a friend, or least learn how to interact and have relationships with other people.
but I miss the confidence I had back then. I hate being anxious and worried, and back then I never did. everything was going to be okay.
i did something I regret now, and I'm sure it would be the wrong time to say anything to that person. but I think of them more and more now, and I miss them.
I'm not sure there is anything I can do but try and provide just a little bit for them. maybe things will change again.
I have no idea where I'll be in a year, or what I'll be doing. it may not matter anymore then, I could be anywhere. I could be teaching art, I could give it up and go into an IT job.
I just don't know.
but I miss the confidence I had back then. I hate being anxious and worried, and back then I never did. everything was going to be okay.
i did something I regret now, and I'm sure it would be the wrong time to say anything to that person. but I think of them more and more now, and I miss them.
I'm not sure there is anything I can do but try and provide just a little bit for them. maybe things will change again.
I have no idea where I'll be in a year, or what I'll be doing. it may not matter anymore then, I could be anywhere. I could be teaching art, I could give it up and go into an IT job.
I just don't know.