I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun
Been getting some incredibly fucked up emails lately. I usually wouldn't really care all that much if it weren't for the fact that I haven't had any dealing's with this person in months. And even then, I didn't exactly know them; the only reason we were on each others' msn lists was because of a good mutual friend. I could bring it to [person] but they wouldn't believe me, and I'm not sure it's even worth having and argument over.
Been talking to a girl I used to be really good friends with. She pretty much stopped talking to me because of this new group of friends she got [one guy in particular]. It was kinda like no matter what was going on with us, they always managed to work their way between us. For example: I was talking to her after I had taken an overdose, and she pretty much went out of her way, over and over again, to tell me I was the most important person in the world to her. We were talking for about 20 minutes about really personal stuff. Then Mr. Fucking Amazing came online and her status was set to busy and every answer I got was 3 words long [max.] and pretty "I don't really care right now". Then she'd change back to being my best friend once he went offline. It was almost as if he was watching her, through her screen, and he disapproved of me. She told me he was jealous and that she was sorry, and after that I pretty much cut all ties. We haven't spoken since [up until the other day]. I dodge her calls & leave her texts unanswered [few and far between as they may be]. Worst thing is: I miss her so much; I would forgive her everything in a heart beat if I knew it wasn't going to go back to being just like before after a few days. It always happens, we reconcile and tell each other how much we've missed each other, then he comes online and magically she doesn't seem to care about or have any time for me.
Anyhoo, point is: I wa stalking to her again the other day. She said she feels so alone sometimes. She feels like she gives and gives and then her problems just get tossed aside because he's so selfish. I felt really bad for her. I tried to help her. I listened to her problems, helped her as much as I could, we were just like before. Then the next day she was back to being so cold towards me. Two days later [ie, today] she came back to me again, have a mini-emotional break down. Reading through her LJ, she went from having 10 comments per entry to none at all. I'm guessing she did to a few other people what she did to me. And today I pretty much told her where to fuck off to. I'm so glad she's all alone now. Completely alienated. Lost without him.
She did it to me.
I hope she cries herself to sleep every night. And I hope more than anything else that she cops on one day and realises that I was always there for her and we were genuinely good friends, and she chose to ignore me in favour of someone who now pays her no attention.
[Bitter? Possibly. But she's the reason I became so untrusting and cold towards people that really cared about me. And because of that I've lost a lot of people that I really cared about. Vicious aul' circle, eh?]
Been talking to a girl I used to be really good friends with. She pretty much stopped talking to me because of this new group of friends she got [one guy in particular]. It was kinda like no matter what was going on with us, they always managed to work their way between us. For example: I was talking to her after I had taken an overdose, and she pretty much went out of her way, over and over again, to tell me I was the most important person in the world to her. We were talking for about 20 minutes about really personal stuff. Then Mr. Fucking Amazing came online and her status was set to busy and every answer I got was 3 words long [max.] and pretty "I don't really care right now". Then she'd change back to being my best friend once he went offline. It was almost as if he was watching her, through her screen, and he disapproved of me. She told me he was jealous and that she was sorry, and after that I pretty much cut all ties. We haven't spoken since [up until the other day]. I dodge her calls & leave her texts unanswered [few and far between as they may be]. Worst thing is: I miss her so much; I would forgive her everything in a heart beat if I knew it wasn't going to go back to being just like before after a few days. It always happens, we reconcile and tell each other how much we've missed each other, then he comes online and magically she doesn't seem to care about or have any time for me.
Anyhoo, point is: I wa stalking to her again the other day. She said she feels so alone sometimes. She feels like she gives and gives and then her problems just get tossed aside because he's so selfish. I felt really bad for her. I tried to help her. I listened to her problems, helped her as much as I could, we were just like before. Then the next day she was back to being so cold towards me. Two days later [ie, today] she came back to me again, have a mini-emotional break down. Reading through her LJ, she went from having 10 comments per entry to none at all. I'm guessing she did to a few other people what she did to me. And today I pretty much told her where to fuck off to. I'm so glad she's all alone now. Completely alienated. Lost without him.
She did it to me.
I hope she cries herself to sleep every night. And I hope more than anything else that she cops on one day and realises that I was always there for her and we were genuinely good friends, and she chose to ignore me in favour of someone who now pays her no attention.
[Bitter? Possibly. But she's the reason I became so untrusting and cold towards people that really cared about me. And because of that I've lost a lot of people that I really cared about. Vicious aul' circle, eh?]