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Here are some of my writings that i created about two years ago. i just found them and im ready to share them.. so here it goes....
Change
Sometimes changes in your life are for the better
Even though it's a time when you must surrender
You must give up the old and start with the new
You must give up the "old you"
Everyone goes though life's little changes
And has to deal with the pain
But they never think at the beginning of how much more they will gain
They always think with their heart and not their brain
It's a circle of life
A life that we must strive to make better
A life that can be lonely at times
A life that is in need
So when we find something great in each life
Let us grab it and let it grow
Let us see what good it brings us
Before its time to let it go
Is This Feeling True
There's this feeling deep down inside of me
A feeling that I'm scared to tell you
Because I'm scared that you might not have the same feeling for me as I do for you
I don't want to ruin our friendship and not have someone I can count on to be there.
When I'm with you, I feel happy, and I forget about everything going on,
At the same time you make me laugh, you make me cry, and you make me want to stay alive.
Can I have you forever?
Will you share the same feelings with me?
Do you love me like I love you?
Is this feeling true?
Every day I think about you
Everyday I don't want to leave you
If I don't talk to you, I am sad
If we get into arguments I'm mad.
It's hard for me to tell you how I feel.
In fear of rejection and a friendship torn apart
Could we live our lives sharing the same heart?
Can I have you forever?
Will you share the same feelings with me?
Do you love me like I love you?
Is this feeling true?
Moonlit Way
It's a dark, but moonlit night, quiet and peaceful
I look at the sky, there are many stars
I reflect on my life, the good and the bad
And see how these same stars have seen me
They have seen me struggle with the pain you give me
They have seen me happy with the unending love you give me as well
I don't ask for much in this life, just to be able to share its beauty
Because when we all think about it, living life is the greatest gift of all
Being able to love, and being able to suffer
Being able to laugh and being able to cry
These stars have seen it
They have seen it all
They will see us until the day we die
They will see us every time we cry
Somehow they will see us through this dark and lonely night
And everything will turn out in the end just fine
Pride
I don't know how to describe this feeling inside,
I'm mad, hurt and alone in my life.
I sit there and wonder "what have I done?"
I realize that my life contains no fun.
I turn quiet and fearful, I don't know who to trust
I just look around and see everyone's lust.
No one looks at me
Everyone oversees me,
I'm invisible
But in the end, after I'm gone, everyone will see
That there was something incredible, inside of me,
Inside of my soul,
Inside of my heart,
A heart made of gold,
I realize now, that I can't describe this feeling inside,
Where I'm mad, hurt and alone in my life,
Yet, I have a lot of pride
This pride that is all mine!
Rainy Days
Oh, I thank you for being there
We were such a great pair
Now we must go our own ways
Ahead I see rainy days
You were there from the beginning
And I didn't see what I had
I just took you for granted
I had it bad
I don't know where I went wrong
I got worse before the first storm
Now I have nothing at all
I feel so small without you
I don't know how to get you back in my life
I made the biggest mistake to lose my guide
I don't know what I want
You didn't deserve all the hurt and the pain
But now I must start a new life over, now I must start a future change
Oh I thank you for being there
We were such a great pair
Now we must go our own way
Ahead I see rainy days
No More Pretend
We started out just friends, the way that all people do
I guess you're thinking this is one of those crazy love stories, yes its true
But I guess you didn't expect the way this story will end
As a matter of fact, we will be friends whose friendship came to an end too soon, just our good memories to the end
My first years of high school, I was lost and confused,
I didn't think I'd find a great friend that would be so true
The next year passed and our friendship got carried away
We took for granted all the good times and fights began to take place
Then one day we decided to call it off because of a misunderstanding
That's the day I regret, because little did I know that I needed you
It was my mistake
The mistake that all unlucky people make
They don't know what they have til its gone forever
Now they look back and wish they had did something to keep what they wanted
And gain even more
Gain love itself between two people
Months went by during that summer
And I felt bad for what I had done
It was your birthday and I wanted to tell you I was sorry
I look back on that day, and think about what all we had to say
What important events we had both missed out on for each other
It was your senior year
And my junior year
We started to hang out more and more
And I started to realize what I had missed out on
I told you I thought that I liked you, but that wasn't enough for who you were
You could never love me the way I wanted you to
Night after night I prayed that you would change your ways
But I learned to accept it a little more and then the acceptance faded away
Jealousy was in store for me
I didn't know that I was this naïve
All my friends told me that I would move on
They said that my feelings were just mixed up and you were only a best friend to me
I didn't think I'd ever be happy again after issues in my past
But when I started to realize my love for you, I was no longer sad
And the smile was back on my face
Graduation day came
And I thought I'd lose you
But I didn't for a few weeks or months
But then new things came
I got a job at a local grocery store
You had a job of your own
You started summer school and you turned 18 and started hanging with other crowds
I knew this day would come, where my best friend would move on
It hurts me deep inside but I know I am strong and can survive
We would talk every now and then and we'd see each other again
It was a depressing day in August
My best friend was growing up it was his time to move on to better things
Now I must move on too, but this is a hard thing to do
You moved away
This was a hard day I had to live
Seeing the person I love find some place new
I thank god I have you but you're all the way up there
Months went by and more fights took place
This was a battle that would never end
Then one day I took out my anger on you, not thinking of how it would affect you
You had enough and said we were through….
I tried getting you back, but nothing I did could take back the mean and nasty words I had said to you
A year had passed and we finally picked up the puzzle pieces of where we left off,
We were good friends, good friends til the end
We started the same college together and spent many times together as the past
I did not know that these times wouldn't last
All it took was one October day, to know I would never see you again until my dying day
This is the part where I hurt the most, I don't have you anymore, I don't have my life anymore, we're not "us", I am just me left with the memory of you
And this is the end of our story
Nothing but good memories til the end
No more pretend…
Change
Sometimes changes in your life are for the better
Even though it's a time when you must surrender
You must give up the old and start with the new
You must give up the "old you"
Everyone goes though life's little changes
And has to deal with the pain
But they never think at the beginning of how much more they will gain
They always think with their heart and not their brain
It's a circle of life
A life that we must strive to make better
A life that can be lonely at times
A life that is in need
So when we find something great in each life
Let us grab it and let it grow
Let us see what good it brings us
Before its time to let it go
Is This Feeling True
There's this feeling deep down inside of me
A feeling that I'm scared to tell you
Because I'm scared that you might not have the same feeling for me as I do for you
I don't want to ruin our friendship and not have someone I can count on to be there.
When I'm with you, I feel happy, and I forget about everything going on,
At the same time you make me laugh, you make me cry, and you make me want to stay alive.
Can I have you forever?
Will you share the same feelings with me?
Do you love me like I love you?
Is this feeling true?
Every day I think about you
Everyday I don't want to leave you
If I don't talk to you, I am sad
If we get into arguments I'm mad.
It's hard for me to tell you how I feel.
In fear of rejection and a friendship torn apart
Could we live our lives sharing the same heart?
Can I have you forever?
Will you share the same feelings with me?
Do you love me like I love you?
Is this feeling true?
Moonlit Way
It's a dark, but moonlit night, quiet and peaceful
I look at the sky, there are many stars
I reflect on my life, the good and the bad
And see how these same stars have seen me
They have seen me struggle with the pain you give me
They have seen me happy with the unending love you give me as well
I don't ask for much in this life, just to be able to share its beauty
Because when we all think about it, living life is the greatest gift of all
Being able to love, and being able to suffer
Being able to laugh and being able to cry
These stars have seen it
They have seen it all
They will see us until the day we die
They will see us every time we cry
Somehow they will see us through this dark and lonely night
And everything will turn out in the end just fine
Pride
I don't know how to describe this feeling inside,
I'm mad, hurt and alone in my life.
I sit there and wonder "what have I done?"
I realize that my life contains no fun.
I turn quiet and fearful, I don't know who to trust
I just look around and see everyone's lust.
No one looks at me
Everyone oversees me,
I'm invisible
But in the end, after I'm gone, everyone will see
That there was something incredible, inside of me,
Inside of my soul,
Inside of my heart,
A heart made of gold,
I realize now, that I can't describe this feeling inside,
Where I'm mad, hurt and alone in my life,
Yet, I have a lot of pride
This pride that is all mine!
Rainy Days
Oh, I thank you for being there
We were such a great pair
Now we must go our own ways
Ahead I see rainy days
You were there from the beginning
And I didn't see what I had
I just took you for granted
I had it bad
I don't know where I went wrong
I got worse before the first storm
Now I have nothing at all
I feel so small without you
I don't know how to get you back in my life
I made the biggest mistake to lose my guide
I don't know what I want
You didn't deserve all the hurt and the pain
But now I must start a new life over, now I must start a future change
Oh I thank you for being there
We were such a great pair
Now we must go our own way
Ahead I see rainy days
No More Pretend
We started out just friends, the way that all people do
I guess you're thinking this is one of those crazy love stories, yes its true
But I guess you didn't expect the way this story will end
As a matter of fact, we will be friends whose friendship came to an end too soon, just our good memories to the end
My first years of high school, I was lost and confused,
I didn't think I'd find a great friend that would be so true
The next year passed and our friendship got carried away
We took for granted all the good times and fights began to take place
Then one day we decided to call it off because of a misunderstanding
That's the day I regret, because little did I know that I needed you
It was my mistake
The mistake that all unlucky people make
They don't know what they have til its gone forever
Now they look back and wish they had did something to keep what they wanted
And gain even more
Gain love itself between two people
Months went by during that summer
And I felt bad for what I had done
It was your birthday and I wanted to tell you I was sorry
I look back on that day, and think about what all we had to say
What important events we had both missed out on for each other
It was your senior year
And my junior year
We started to hang out more and more
And I started to realize what I had missed out on
I told you I thought that I liked you, but that wasn't enough for who you were
You could never love me the way I wanted you to
Night after night I prayed that you would change your ways
But I learned to accept it a little more and then the acceptance faded away
Jealousy was in store for me
I didn't know that I was this naïve
All my friends told me that I would move on
They said that my feelings were just mixed up and you were only a best friend to me
I didn't think I'd ever be happy again after issues in my past
But when I started to realize my love for you, I was no longer sad
And the smile was back on my face
Graduation day came
And I thought I'd lose you
But I didn't for a few weeks or months
But then new things came
I got a job at a local grocery store
You had a job of your own
You started summer school and you turned 18 and started hanging with other crowds
I knew this day would come, where my best friend would move on
It hurts me deep inside but I know I am strong and can survive
We would talk every now and then and we'd see each other again
It was a depressing day in August
My best friend was growing up it was his time to move on to better things
Now I must move on too, but this is a hard thing to do
You moved away
This was a hard day I had to live
Seeing the person I love find some place new
I thank god I have you but you're all the way up there
Months went by and more fights took place
This was a battle that would never end
Then one day I took out my anger on you, not thinking of how it would affect you
You had enough and said we were through….
I tried getting you back, but nothing I did could take back the mean and nasty words I had said to you
A year had passed and we finally picked up the puzzle pieces of where we left off,
We were good friends, good friends til the end
We started the same college together and spent many times together as the past
I did not know that these times wouldn't last
All it took was one October day, to know I would never see you again until my dying day
This is the part where I hurt the most, I don't have you anymore, I don't have my life anymore, we're not "us", I am just me left with the memory of you
And this is the end of our story
Nothing but good memories til the end
No more pretend…