2005.. Longest Year... Its the End and Ready to leave it behind!
First of all i'd like to congratulate Sarah on her new beau.haha.. love ya!
so im sitting here tonight thinking of everything i've been through this year. it has been a BIG/memorable year for me and probably the most hardest year ever.
To list the events in my life:
January- i am waiting for high school to be over, im still holding my job at the store, im still not friends with Brandon, and i still have no life!
Feb- same stuff as January but i have a prom date set.. yea!
March- i turn 18! i go to the bar for my first time! i start to learn who my true friends are and who are backstabbing and lying bitches, Brandon and i start to make up
April- prom, my heart is broken by my prom date, i get sick for prom, but everything else is just normal
May- I finally graduate from High school! i quit my job at the store after working there for a year, i lose friends and gain friends *no names* i get my first car!!!!
June- July- i get a job at southeastern, i get ready for school, la ti do ti da, my life is still dull, but i do have a boyfriend! thought he was the greatest guy, but i thought wrong, i break up with him in June and then we get back together adn then he goes after my best friend. Enough said.. but she turned him down and dissed him and yea.. this is the point where my brother and i start getting close.
August- i start college. Brandon and i are good friends again. well we've been friends for a few months now but we're back to our old selves.
September- i meet new people nad make new friends. my life is so cool right now! i'm doing great!
October- first week- everything is just great. im so on cloud nine. i have the greatest friends, a good job *so i thought*, im doing extremely well in school, everything is wonderful!
next two weeks everything is cool. i got to go to my first college football game, got to spend time with friends, everything is soo cool!
Next week- everything goes downhill- after getting back the friendship i had with Brandon, he dies, my grades arent doing good, im a nervous wreck, i see all the friends i do have by their support but i've lost the heart of everything.
November- things get better eventually, i dont think about him as much and im putting on a smile for everyone. i quit my job on campus. school sux at the moment. yea... its fabulous...
December- things get worse. my grandma goes into the hospital so we're watching her now and shes back home thank god but she doesnt want to like leave to her house. i have no privacy anymore cuz she has my room. but oh well. not trying to sound all mean or anything, its just.. i need time alone to myself! im broke as usual. i failed two classes. im a nervous wreck with my emotions. i have so many friends but i still feel lonely. i am literally going psycho... crazy house here i come...
so lets see in one year i've had two jobs and gotten rid of those two jobs so now im broke, two sucky boyfriends who cheated on me, friends that are backstabbing as fuck, and the friends that i do have have lives of their own or they are just pretending to and are shutting me out. i have friends who lie to my face, yea.. i lost the best friend i ever had. i flunked two of my classes the first semester of college.. gee.. my life so totally sucks right now.
Usually im the one on the sidelines rooting for everyone, but this time i dont have the energy to do that. i dont even have the energy to pick up my head nad keep walking. i have to say that life is Hell. I no longer believe in such things called friends and love because they both mean nothing to me anymore. yes i may sound bitter, but im not sorry for it and i wont apologize. This is more of a Venting entry than anything so if u want to gimme some feedback, you can, but you dont have to.. this is just something i had to let out. so now everyone can go about your business and send me to a psycho ward, but oh well. and as far as sympathy, i dont want it, so dont send it!
Yea.. im ready for this year to be over with...
so im sitting here tonight thinking of everything i've been through this year. it has been a BIG/memorable year for me and probably the most hardest year ever.
To list the events in my life:
January- i am waiting for high school to be over, im still holding my job at the store, im still not friends with Brandon, and i still have no life!
Feb- same stuff as January but i have a prom date set.. yea!
March- i turn 18! i go to the bar for my first time! i start to learn who my true friends are and who are backstabbing and lying bitches, Brandon and i start to make up
April- prom, my heart is broken by my prom date, i get sick for prom, but everything else is just normal
May- I finally graduate from High school! i quit my job at the store after working there for a year, i lose friends and gain friends *no names* i get my first car!!!!
June- July- i get a job at southeastern, i get ready for school, la ti do ti da, my life is still dull, but i do have a boyfriend! thought he was the greatest guy, but i thought wrong, i break up with him in June and then we get back together adn then he goes after my best friend. Enough said.. but she turned him down and dissed him and yea.. this is the point where my brother and i start getting close.
August- i start college. Brandon and i are good friends again. well we've been friends for a few months now but we're back to our old selves.
September- i meet new people nad make new friends. my life is so cool right now! i'm doing great!
October- first week- everything is just great. im so on cloud nine. i have the greatest friends, a good job *so i thought*, im doing extremely well in school, everything is wonderful!
next two weeks everything is cool. i got to go to my first college football game, got to spend time with friends, everything is soo cool!
Next week- everything goes downhill- after getting back the friendship i had with Brandon, he dies, my grades arent doing good, im a nervous wreck, i see all the friends i do have by their support but i've lost the heart of everything.
November- things get better eventually, i dont think about him as much and im putting on a smile for everyone. i quit my job on campus. school sux at the moment. yea... its fabulous...
December- things get worse. my grandma goes into the hospital so we're watching her now and shes back home thank god but she doesnt want to like leave to her house. i have no privacy anymore cuz she has my room. but oh well. not trying to sound all mean or anything, its just.. i need time alone to myself! im broke as usual. i failed two classes. im a nervous wreck with my emotions. i have so many friends but i still feel lonely. i am literally going psycho... crazy house here i come...
so lets see in one year i've had two jobs and gotten rid of those two jobs so now im broke, two sucky boyfriends who cheated on me, friends that are backstabbing as fuck, and the friends that i do have have lives of their own or they are just pretending to and are shutting me out. i have friends who lie to my face, yea.. i lost the best friend i ever had. i flunked two of my classes the first semester of college.. gee.. my life so totally sucks right now.
Usually im the one on the sidelines rooting for everyone, but this time i dont have the energy to do that. i dont even have the energy to pick up my head nad keep walking. i have to say that life is Hell. I no longer believe in such things called friends and love because they both mean nothing to me anymore. yes i may sound bitter, but im not sorry for it and i wont apologize. This is more of a Venting entry than anything so if u want to gimme some feedback, you can, but you dont have to.. this is just something i had to let out. so now everyone can go about your business and send me to a psycho ward, but oh well. and as far as sympathy, i dont want it, so dont send it!
Yea.. im ready for this year to be over with...