Sorry's
So I got this idea from a writing prompt, and I'm going to generalise it because I feel like it. Writing is love...
First, I want to apologise for the lovely people who actually read the crap I crank out, especially the ones on livejournal (yes that means you dragonfei ^^). I kept saying I'd finish my last few pieces before school started, because I KNEW I wouldn't have the time otherwise, but despite that I prioritised cosplay over and over and now I'm stuck at that terrible plateau and have no idea when I'm going to get finished with them. I'm really, really, super sorry. I adore anyone who likes my stuff, as I know it's generally not likeable, and the fact that there are few people out there who don't know me who actually leave me comments on my writing is indescribably touching. I really can't express my gratitude to you guys.
So what I'm going to do is ask for a deadline. I do really well with deadlines ^^ Even though school is definitely bogging me down now, I NEED to make time to write - it's what keeps me sane. And I can't deny requests from people I'm grateful to. So please, guys, set me a deadline. When do you want to have this stuff by? And which stuff? I know I owe my LJ readers the end of "Is this forever...?", as well as twenty-some-odd installments to finish off the 50stories yokao prompts. And then I also owe people con pictures, and I think I have some drabbles due to one or two people. Is there anything else? oxo Okay...set me some times! >.< I'll do it, I swear! *crosses heart and hopes to die
Now second, I want to apologise to my characters, especially the ones I recently killed off. Guys, I'm so sorry I prioritised that stupid roleplay over you. Some of you will never come back in your truest form, and that makes me really sad. To you, I'm making up by asking for concessions and forgiveness, as well as some serious action by the stronger muses among you. No I'm not schizo, real people who are reading this, I just know how to make liveable characters ^^ So I just have to hope they don't rip me to shreds, and decide to forgive me and help me with ideas instead. <3
Thirdly, to the last two books I killed. Nic, Jared, I really am sorry to have left you "over there". Hopefully when I learn a little more about real pain and the real world I'll be able to speak better for you. No X, I'm not apologising to you because you're still there. But I do need to apologise to the entire cast of Wisteria Red. I failed you so hardcore. I am SO sorry. That book was intended to be one of my masterpieces, and about the middle I decided the plot was terrible and it went downhill from there. If I ever actually finish the monster, I'll make sure to make it readable. Maybe not worth publishing - but hell, people read crazy stuff sometimes...
I'm not asking anything from those, nor am I asking for anything from the fourth installment; my beloved friends. You guys have stuck around - and you all know who you are, I hope, though some may think wrongly (but I love each and every one of you! <3) - through fucking EVERYTHING. I owe my life to you, each one at a certain time, and I really hate that I've never been able to word it right, not even now. Hopefully someday you'll all get exactly what you deserve, the good AND the bad, so you won't be spared any learning but you will be spared some pain. Thank you all so much...
Okay now I've ripped my heart out and put it on little pieces of bread to make pb&h sammiches, I'll go post this in various places. Sorry lastly for everyone who read all of this, I hate being emo ^^'
- Ame <3