Day 12 - a continuation of day 11.
Michelle, thank you so much for the barquirons! They made my day.
God help me forgive, because right now I'm so angry. Yesterday I was filled with hate for this world. Usually when I look at the sky, I'm reminded about how much beauty there is in the world, but yesterday and today I look up, and it's just a reminder of how ugly the world can be. It's a world where wars are a necessity to achieve peace. It's a world where we value life, so instead of living for a cause, people have to die for it. It's a world where people are selfish, and greedy. It's a world where mother's kill their babies, and people kill other people and get satisfaction from it.
It's a world that I feel is getting overcome by hate and evil.
But then I remembered, evil can only overcome and thrive if good people stand back and do nothing. Evil has not won, because there are still good people around. Evil has not yet won, because it hasn't and will not take over ME. I believe I have goodness inside me, and I know inside I have a heart, and as long as my heart is filled with love instead of hate - evil hasn't won. It hasn't won over me. I can't hate this world, because if I let my heart fill with hate then I'd be taking part in all the evil going around, and I can't let that happen.
Thank you God for clearing my mind yesterday, and letting me fall asleep easily. I slept for a good fourteen hours, and it really helped me take my mind off of a lot of things. It helped me breathe. It helped me find peace inside my heart. Yesterday my heart felt so hollow, so shattered. I fell asleep numbing myself, and I woke up numb inside. I didn't want to feel, because feeling hurts, but apathy is not the right way to go. Not caring is worst than sinful acts, because not caring is an excuse for good people to not do anything, and it is how evil wins.
Yesterday I read the Bible, and it reminded me to not let my morals falter. Forgiving people is part of my morals. I can be angry, but it is also up to me to forgive. I have to forgive. People who don't forgive hold grudges, and they end up wanting to get revenge, and that's another way evil thrives. Look at the death penalty. It's all about "punishment".. revenge. I have to forgive a certain person. I've always been able to accept other peoples' morals and principles even though they may have opposed mine, but it was only because their opposing beliefs never hit me on a personal level. Yesterday, they did, and now I have to forgive, and it's going to be hard, especially if... I'd rather not say.
There IS beauty and goodness in this world, I just have to look inside and find it.
"You must love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: love your neighbor as yourself." - Matthew 22:37-39
Edit // Sometimes you have to look inside yourself instead of outside to the world to find beauty.
God help me forgive, because right now I'm so angry. Yesterday I was filled with hate for this world. Usually when I look at the sky, I'm reminded about how much beauty there is in the world, but yesterday and today I look up, and it's just a reminder of how ugly the world can be. It's a world where wars are a necessity to achieve peace. It's a world where we value life, so instead of living for a cause, people have to die for it. It's a world where people are selfish, and greedy. It's a world where mother's kill their babies, and people kill other people and get satisfaction from it.
It's a world that I feel is getting overcome by hate and evil.
But then I remembered, evil can only overcome and thrive if good people stand back and do nothing. Evil has not won, because there are still good people around. Evil has not yet won, because it hasn't and will not take over ME. I believe I have goodness inside me, and I know inside I have a heart, and as long as my heart is filled with love instead of hate - evil hasn't won. It hasn't won over me. I can't hate this world, because if I let my heart fill with hate then I'd be taking part in all the evil going around, and I can't let that happen.
Thank you God for clearing my mind yesterday, and letting me fall asleep easily. I slept for a good fourteen hours, and it really helped me take my mind off of a lot of things. It helped me breathe. It helped me find peace inside my heart. Yesterday my heart felt so hollow, so shattered. I fell asleep numbing myself, and I woke up numb inside. I didn't want to feel, because feeling hurts, but apathy is not the right way to go. Not caring is worst than sinful acts, because not caring is an excuse for good people to not do anything, and it is how evil wins.
Yesterday I read the Bible, and it reminded me to not let my morals falter. Forgiving people is part of my morals. I can be angry, but it is also up to me to forgive. I have to forgive. People who don't forgive hold grudges, and they end up wanting to get revenge, and that's another way evil thrives. Look at the death penalty. It's all about "punishment".. revenge. I have to forgive a certain person. I've always been able to accept other peoples' morals and principles even though they may have opposed mine, but it was only because their opposing beliefs never hit me on a personal level. Yesterday, they did, and now I have to forgive, and it's going to be hard, especially if... I'd rather not say.
There IS beauty and goodness in this world, I just have to look inside and find it.
"You must love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: love your neighbor as yourself." - Matthew 22:37-39
Edit // Sometimes you have to look inside yourself instead of outside to the world to find beauty.