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[missworld]

i miss alot of things.
i miss staying out until 4 in the morning, laughing and altered.
i miss being excited.
i miss having a properly working cell phone.
i miss being my own boss.

somethings gotta change.
i'll fix this, i promise.

i feel like a horrible friend sometimes.
i never get to see the some of the people
who mean the very most to me, and when i
tell them how much i care about them, i
don't think they even believe me anymore.
but it's the truth. i'm working on changing
the way i'm never around. if it hurts you,
remember that it's hurting me too. i love
you all. i really do.



...i went to sonar on friday, it was totally
weird/lame. bros and bro-hoes infested the
once crowded floors, and i barely saw anyone
i knew. it's also weird to hear that one of
your ex's could be on his way to getting
married. well, whatever.

i thought that the weird dreams were over,
but they're not. get out of my head please.

i need to take more chances. i need to stop
seeing your face in all of my dreams. it's
been so long since i last saw you, and it's
the only thing thats keeping you real to me.

i'm an adult, and yet i feel so restricted.
no...not again...