2011 comes to a close.
January 1, 2011
I was in India and I would fly back that night. L and I discussed the possibility of her getting married after her graduation in July and she had assured me that there would be no way she would be getting married this year.
Jan 3, 2011
It was my first day at work as part of my internship module. I was tired and emotionally upset. I wasn't in the mood for work and as I waited for my Boss to brief me I kind of fell asleep. It was embarrassing having to explain to the boss, that No,I wasn't sick but merely jetlagged as I had only landed the previous day.
Jan,2011
So it was the first sem that T and I would be spending apart. Technically,it was the last sem as well. We would call every lunch break and talk until it was over. My phone bill dramatically increased. Of course, if I try to recall what the calls were about I would have no idea what we talked about. But it was always reassuring to hear his voice and whenever I felt that i had fucked up big time, it was nice to have someone who believed that no mater how much I fucked up, I would find a way a to make it better.
Met up with T and D once in a while.
Work wise, I was never confident of myself. I felt so inferior to my boss and I was in awe of his mental capabilities that I held myself back.
Started going to gym, I had no stamina what so ever.
Feb 2011
Remember meeting up with S more cos she was also doing her internship. Spent Vday with friends, cycling if I am not wrong.
Mar 2011
Halfway mark already for internship. It was then I made a drastic mistake at work. I had analysed an article wrongly and I only spotted the error hours before the presentation to the clients. I had immediately notified my boss but I knew I was in for a talk. I felt so guilty because I always prided myself on meticulous work especially when it came to research and I felt I had let my team mate down. Glad to say, never repeated such a mistake again.
April 2011
L informed me that she was going to get married. I was shocked and scared. For we were the same age and she was older than me by only one week. We had done everything together. When I called back home, they had a brilliant idea where they would hold a double wedding for us. Hell to the NO.
May 2011
Things were getting strained between T and I; he felt that I wasn't giving him enough time. It seemed that he wasn't happy to just talk everyday...not even if we talked for about an hour each time. He wanted to meet up as well. Sadly, my work load was increasing and that just didnt seem possible.
My grandmother had arrived from India as well and most days I was rushing back home so that I could spend time with her.
June 2011
I had made it to the end of my internship. Made it with reports. I had gotten along with the other intern, a junior of my business program and we even planned to do other mods in NUS together the following sem.
The last few days of T in Singapore drew near and he was pressuring me to spend more time with him to make for the days when he would be away. I really wanted to do that and we planned evenings where we could just that. However, my father had decided to give a farewell dinner party to my grandmama and it was on the same night as the party we had planned. He wanted me to choose him over my grandmama but I didn't. And this caused the second BIG fight between the two of us. He refused to talk to me for days. Until one day, I called his home and his brother passed the phone to him. And then he dropped the bomb that he was no longer angry with me but that he was waiting until my grandmother left to talk to me. Because he wanted me to feel like he did. Bad and hurt. I didn't know what to say. So I shouted at him instead. At the end of the phone call, my boss thought I was weird but we had patched up and thats all I could care about at that moment.
We spent the last few hours together at the airport until he had to leave when they announced final boarding. I had promised no tears but some promises are meant to be broken.
July 2011
Best month ever! Final week at work. Trip to SV!!! I loved SF and I want to live there one day for at least a few years :D
Aug 2011
After coming from the states, that every weekend, I left for India for 3 days! And I did shopping for L's wedding. Finding the sari was difficult. The red outfit was found within 2 hours in the first shop I entered.
Coming back to school I hated travelling everyday to school so when I finally haggled my way into free accommodation on Campus I didn't look back! I would move in Sep.
Sep 2011
By now, classes were in full swing. I only attended 2 of my 5 classes. I made friends in NH and we would have supper around 2am. We played drinking games and confessed things we wouldn't under normal circumstances.
Thats when I met V and started developing a tendré on him.
Oct 2011
I went for the DnD and it was my first one since primary school so I took this opportunity to doll up cos I had never been to prom. It was a good night. Not only did I get complimented on my looks, but I also reconnected with an old acquaintance with whom an instant best-friend connection was formed. tom and I go way back and that night it was good to have him around, We spent half the dinner lounging against a wall and comparing people round us. I also introduced him to J whom he would later develop feelings for. I am awesome at matchmaking. Although ppl thought we had known each other well for years. Hhahaha.
Met up with P and we fooled around. It made me realise that passion for someone is very important to me for actions itself while good didn't make me feel like I wanted more.
Went to L's wedding. It was a painful wake up call. I promised myself that I would never have such a wedding. She could barely recognize most people who came for the various functions. If I had a wedding, it would be an evening affair with close friends and family near the seaside. No complications and ceremonies. And most definitely I don't want to be wearing 4kg of flowers in my hair. Of course L looked beautiful in that traditional style. But I could barely walk in a sari at her wedding. She was lucky enough that she married someone who has come to care very much for her. But I just cannot allow for myself an arranged marriage. Even if I can't find love, I would rather be alone than settle for someone whom I would resent.
Received results for Ca for cardio I had done. Fail. heart broken cos i had put in so much effort into it.
Halloween was awesome. K, tom, J and I spent it together watching Rocky horror show and getting smashed. When I went to knock on a friends door, little did I know that he was entertaining someone. LOL.
Nov 2011
Celebrated my 22nd at an italian restaurant with tom,S and J. The fish we had literally melted in our mouths and I could hardly forget its taste even today.
Then we walked into a bar and stayed there talking about how I make everything sound pornish especially when I talk about food and how I should have a Utube channel for it. Like I said, we were high and slightly tipsy.
Then we bought whipped cream, salmon and vanilla ice cream and headed back to NH where we proceeded to have fun. tom put some cream onto his hand and somehow managed to smash into my face. And while I was blinded he tried to get more on but when he brought it near my mouth, my instinct was to eat the whipped cream! And thus we came up with a line " as long as its near my mouth, I will lick it" LOL
Then it was time for finals! Few days before my exams were to start, I was called down for an interview with the company I liked.
Once most of my exams were over, I clubbed like crazy. 3 times in one week. I would never regret this. And on one occasion, I lost a bet and even had to write a confession to my crush. It was funny. And like K said,"you are only as young as you are right now. Just do it!"
So I did.
Dec 2011
Exams finished, I went to T's place so that I could pack his stuff and also to collect my present. He had sent me a present for my bday. Ironically, he could never be arsed about my bday when he was here but the moment he is half the world apart, he begun to remind me of my bday even before I reminded him. Blackmailing me I am sure.
Watched K's play with Z. I wish we had gotten more time together this year.
I got the job. Moved back home. It drove me crazy having my parentals scolding me and telling me what to do every single day.
Suddenly its the end of the year. How did that happen?
I am just thankful that this year went the way that it day. After 3 years, I finally had a semester in school without T and it allowed me to meet new people and create new friends. Something that had been quite difficult to do in the past.
The other day as he talked, he mentioned how much his partner got jealous of me cos of the way he compared him to me. But I am also afraid to believe what he says cos what if he is saying this to pander to the part of me that needs people to need me. I don't know. The last time I didn't believe him, it ended up with the both of us not speaking to each other for 3 months. Oh well. Pinch of salt and everything.
I can't wait for 2012. Its supposed to be a good year for my career! And I plan to travel with T for at least a few days when he comes back next year :D
Unfortunately or fortunately, there is to be no changes in my love life. Whats new?
Happy New years!
I was in India and I would fly back that night. L and I discussed the possibility of her getting married after her graduation in July and she had assured me that there would be no way she would be getting married this year.
Jan 3, 2011
It was my first day at work as part of my internship module. I was tired and emotionally upset. I wasn't in the mood for work and as I waited for my Boss to brief me I kind of fell asleep. It was embarrassing having to explain to the boss, that No,I wasn't sick but merely jetlagged as I had only landed the previous day.
Jan,2011
So it was the first sem that T and I would be spending apart. Technically,it was the last sem as well. We would call every lunch break and talk until it was over. My phone bill dramatically increased. Of course, if I try to recall what the calls were about I would have no idea what we talked about. But it was always reassuring to hear his voice and whenever I felt that i had fucked up big time, it was nice to have someone who believed that no mater how much I fucked up, I would find a way a to make it better.
Met up with T and D once in a while.
Work wise, I was never confident of myself. I felt so inferior to my boss and I was in awe of his mental capabilities that I held myself back.
Started going to gym, I had no stamina what so ever.
Feb 2011
Remember meeting up with S more cos she was also doing her internship. Spent Vday with friends, cycling if I am not wrong.
Mar 2011
Halfway mark already for internship. It was then I made a drastic mistake at work. I had analysed an article wrongly and I only spotted the error hours before the presentation to the clients. I had immediately notified my boss but I knew I was in for a talk. I felt so guilty because I always prided myself on meticulous work especially when it came to research and I felt I had let my team mate down. Glad to say, never repeated such a mistake again.
April 2011
L informed me that she was going to get married. I was shocked and scared. For we were the same age and she was older than me by only one week. We had done everything together. When I called back home, they had a brilliant idea where they would hold a double wedding for us. Hell to the NO.
May 2011
Things were getting strained between T and I; he felt that I wasn't giving him enough time. It seemed that he wasn't happy to just talk everyday...not even if we talked for about an hour each time. He wanted to meet up as well. Sadly, my work load was increasing and that just didnt seem possible.
My grandmother had arrived from India as well and most days I was rushing back home so that I could spend time with her.
June 2011
I had made it to the end of my internship. Made it with reports. I had gotten along with the other intern, a junior of my business program and we even planned to do other mods in NUS together the following sem.
The last few days of T in Singapore drew near and he was pressuring me to spend more time with him to make for the days when he would be away. I really wanted to do that and we planned evenings where we could just that. However, my father had decided to give a farewell dinner party to my grandmama and it was on the same night as the party we had planned. He wanted me to choose him over my grandmama but I didn't. And this caused the second BIG fight between the two of us. He refused to talk to me for days. Until one day, I called his home and his brother passed the phone to him. And then he dropped the bomb that he was no longer angry with me but that he was waiting until my grandmother left to talk to me. Because he wanted me to feel like he did. Bad and hurt. I didn't know what to say. So I shouted at him instead. At the end of the phone call, my boss thought I was weird but we had patched up and thats all I could care about at that moment.
We spent the last few hours together at the airport until he had to leave when they announced final boarding. I had promised no tears but some promises are meant to be broken.
July 2011
Best month ever! Final week at work. Trip to SV!!! I loved SF and I want to live there one day for at least a few years :D
Aug 2011
After coming from the states, that every weekend, I left for India for 3 days! And I did shopping for L's wedding. Finding the sari was difficult. The red outfit was found within 2 hours in the first shop I entered.
Coming back to school I hated travelling everyday to school so when I finally haggled my way into free accommodation on Campus I didn't look back! I would move in Sep.
Sep 2011
By now, classes were in full swing. I only attended 2 of my 5 classes. I made friends in NH and we would have supper around 2am. We played drinking games and confessed things we wouldn't under normal circumstances.
Thats when I met V and started developing a tendré on him.
Oct 2011
I went for the DnD and it was my first one since primary school so I took this opportunity to doll up cos I had never been to prom. It was a good night. Not only did I get complimented on my looks, but I also reconnected with an old acquaintance with whom an instant best-friend connection was formed. tom and I go way back and that night it was good to have him around, We spent half the dinner lounging against a wall and comparing people round us. I also introduced him to J whom he would later develop feelings for. I am awesome at matchmaking. Although ppl thought we had known each other well for years. Hhahaha.
Met up with P and we fooled around. It made me realise that passion for someone is very important to me for actions itself while good didn't make me feel like I wanted more.
Went to L's wedding. It was a painful wake up call. I promised myself that I would never have such a wedding. She could barely recognize most people who came for the various functions. If I had a wedding, it would be an evening affair with close friends and family near the seaside. No complications and ceremonies. And most definitely I don't want to be wearing 4kg of flowers in my hair. Of course L looked beautiful in that traditional style. But I could barely walk in a sari at her wedding. She was lucky enough that she married someone who has come to care very much for her. But I just cannot allow for myself an arranged marriage. Even if I can't find love, I would rather be alone than settle for someone whom I would resent.
Received results for Ca for cardio I had done. Fail. heart broken cos i had put in so much effort into it.
Halloween was awesome. K, tom, J and I spent it together watching Rocky horror show and getting smashed. When I went to knock on a friends door, little did I know that he was entertaining someone. LOL.
Nov 2011
Celebrated my 22nd at an italian restaurant with tom,S and J. The fish we had literally melted in our mouths and I could hardly forget its taste even today.
Then we walked into a bar and stayed there talking about how I make everything sound pornish especially when I talk about food and how I should have a Utube channel for it. Like I said, we were high and slightly tipsy.
Then we bought whipped cream, salmon and vanilla ice cream and headed back to NH where we proceeded to have fun. tom put some cream onto his hand and somehow managed to smash into my face. And while I was blinded he tried to get more on but when he brought it near my mouth, my instinct was to eat the whipped cream! And thus we came up with a line " as long as its near my mouth, I will lick it" LOL
Then it was time for finals! Few days before my exams were to start, I was called down for an interview with the company I liked.
Once most of my exams were over, I clubbed like crazy. 3 times in one week. I would never regret this. And on one occasion, I lost a bet and even had to write a confession to my crush. It was funny. And like K said,"you are only as young as you are right now. Just do it!"
So I did.
Dec 2011
Exams finished, I went to T's place so that I could pack his stuff and also to collect my present. He had sent me a present for my bday. Ironically, he could never be arsed about my bday when he was here but the moment he is half the world apart, he begun to remind me of my bday even before I reminded him. Blackmailing me I am sure.
Watched K's play with Z. I wish we had gotten more time together this year.
I got the job. Moved back home. It drove me crazy having my parentals scolding me and telling me what to do every single day.
Suddenly its the end of the year. How did that happen?
I am just thankful that this year went the way that it day. After 3 years, I finally had a semester in school without T and it allowed me to meet new people and create new friends. Something that had been quite difficult to do in the past.
The other day as he talked, he mentioned how much his partner got jealous of me cos of the way he compared him to me. But I am also afraid to believe what he says cos what if he is saying this to pander to the part of me that needs people to need me. I don't know. The last time I didn't believe him, it ended up with the both of us not speaking to each other for 3 months. Oh well. Pinch of salt and everything.
I can't wait for 2012. Its supposed to be a good year for my career! And I plan to travel with T for at least a few days when he comes back next year :D
Unfortunately or fortunately, there is to be no changes in my love life. Whats new?
Happy New years!