better i think
I'm not sure if it's the prospect of meeting up with the IP and my honey in Florida in a few days or the drugs or a combination but I think I'm feeling better. Haven't spontaneously burst into tears for no reason in days, so that's good I think.
My new computer got fried. (Yeah, my 3rd laptop in 16 months, lol!). It's amazing how naked I feel without that little 4lb pile of plastic and metal. It's on it's way back from the repair shop in California now and will be here Friday...the day AFTER i leave. Figgers!
I'm looking forward to the shows. Well, at least seeing the show once, which is a much better attitude than i had a month or two ago. The response to this format/setting/style has been really good so that makes for a positive work environment for my baby. And leaves me free to just enjoy it to.
I had a hard time with JLPA at first...the way in which it took me back a decade was very sad for me at first. Especially while I'm in the throws of dissecting my sister's 10 year marriage with her. ("What did I do wrong? What did I not see then that I should have? How should I have done things differently?") Not only is it difficult for me to go through that with her because of our relationship and my relationship to my brother-in-law, but, naturally, it brings back my own mistakes of 1995. So yeah...too much baggage surfacing at the moment to make JLPA a fun or good experience for me. For a while, I wasn't sure I could even sit through a show. And I'm still not sure I can handle it. But I feel generally more at peace and optimistic about everything so hopefully I'll just relax and have a good time with my friends.
Work. woah. Things are starting to really get rolling on our $60M contingency fee case. The pressure's just beginning but...I'm a little worried about how I'll handle it. I'm about as motivated as I've ever been, but my skills...not so sure about that. I don't have alot of experience in this particular area. Guess I'll just hold on and peddle my ass off. There's this adorable used Mercedes (orange/red) in the dealer lot near my house. I keep wondering if buying it will further motivate me or just unnecessarily add to the pressure. Not sure about that one. 'Tis a hot little car though. Hmm.....
My new computer got fried. (Yeah, my 3rd laptop in 16 months, lol!). It's amazing how naked I feel without that little 4lb pile of plastic and metal. It's on it's way back from the repair shop in California now and will be here Friday...the day AFTER i leave. Figgers!
I'm looking forward to the shows. Well, at least seeing the show once, which is a much better attitude than i had a month or two ago. The response to this format/setting/style has been really good so that makes for a positive work environment for my baby. And leaves me free to just enjoy it to.
I had a hard time with JLPA at first...the way in which it took me back a decade was very sad for me at first. Especially while I'm in the throws of dissecting my sister's 10 year marriage with her. ("What did I do wrong? What did I not see then that I should have? How should I have done things differently?") Not only is it difficult for me to go through that with her because of our relationship and my relationship to my brother-in-law, but, naturally, it brings back my own mistakes of 1995. So yeah...too much baggage surfacing at the moment to make JLPA a fun or good experience for me. For a while, I wasn't sure I could even sit through a show. And I'm still not sure I can handle it. But I feel generally more at peace and optimistic about everything so hopefully I'll just relax and have a good time with my friends.
Work. woah. Things are starting to really get rolling on our $60M contingency fee case. The pressure's just beginning but...I'm a little worried about how I'll handle it. I'm about as motivated as I've ever been, but my skills...not so sure about that. I don't have alot of experience in this particular area. Guess I'll just hold on and peddle my ass off. There's this adorable used Mercedes (orange/red) in the dealer lot near my house. I keep wondering if buying it will further motivate me or just unnecessarily add to the pressure. Not sure about that one. 'Tis a hot little car though. Hmm.....