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1. Are you male or female? Female
2. Age: 20
3. Age you began to cut: 17
4. Does anyone know you cut? Yes
5. Do your parents or anyone you live with? Yes
6. Do you ever burn or bruise yourself? No
7. Do you think that you are depressed? at times
8. Do you think you have anxiety problems? Yep
9. Do you think you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)? No
10. Do you have any other disorders? I'm beginning to think I'm borderline..
11. Do you have an eating disorder? nope
12. Are you on meds?no
13. Have you been hospitalized or to the E.R. for a self injury/suicide attempt? Yes
14. Have you tried to commit suicide? no
15. How?
16. Does anyone know that you tried?
17. Are you or have you ever been abused in any way? lets not go there
18. Have you ever been sexually assaulted? Sadly.
19. How? again, lets not go there
20. Do you do drugs? sometimes
21. Do you think of cutting as a good or bad thing? Depending on the person, i think for me yes
22. Do you wish you could stop? Sometimes.
23. Do you wish to stop in the future? Eventually, yes. Before I have children. I don't want to be a self absorbed bitch all my life.
24. What are your feelings leading up to, during and after cutting? I feel like crying usually I grab the nearest sharp object, anger or saddness, rage often overcomes me. I watch myself bleed, trying to clean up the mess at the same time, and then after it all I just feel empty and continue doing whatever I was doing before I snapped.
27. Where do you most normally cut? Arms. Ankles.
28. Please describe it, color, atmosphere: My room, with my blade, while I play music.
29. Are you alone? Yes.
30. Do you have a weapon of choice, do you carry it with you? I used to carry my blades around with me in case I needed it.
31. Have you ever made a weapon out of something ordinary or something you found? no
32. What have you used to injure yourself? Knife, scissors, blades, broken glass, pins, safety pins, etc..
33. How do you feel about your cuts/scars, do they tell a story? They have recently been words of how im feeling at the time...i will cover them soon with tattoos...
34. Have people ever asked about your cuts/scars? Too many...
35. What did you tell them? It depends who they are. Often, I lie to everyone. Except one person I told them exactly why and what happened. I just told them everything.
36. Do you ever show people your cuts/scars? i have in the past...nick checks me from time to time...
37. Do you ever design a cut? yes
38. Are your cuts lines or in rows or designs? lines and designs
39. Have you ever cut too deep? No
40. Have you ever scared yourself while, before or after cutting? always after I didn't know what to do..
41. Do you go to therapy? my friends help...
42. Do you have trust issues? when i get in fights with people
43. Do you sit in corners? no
44. Do you know people or hang out with people who cut? Yeah..
45. Are you involved with any one right now? my husband
46. Do you have long relationships or one night stands? I have a long relationship now, and thats how i used to be, or how i wanted things. And i have a few one night stands, but not all by my choice.
47. Does the person you are involved with know about cutting?