Medical Medical
Okay so a few years ago I passed out at my desk at work. Unfortunately, having sleep problems, I hadn't slept in over six months, not even an hour okay, my co-workers thought I was sleeping and decided to allow me to get some shut eye. When I finally "woke up" I was speaking in cartoon speak. I don't know how else to explain it. They said I was talking about toes and mickey mouse. Fortunately the "ill on the job" officer sits directly across from me and realized that something was wrong with me. They made me go to the employee doctor and he told me to go home until I saw my regular doctor and it was decided if I could work regular hours. I guess I should mention that I have stage IV Endometriosis and have had 4 surgeries, etc. etc. So, I went home and waited for my HMO appointment to arrive. During those two weeks, I passed out several times and twice was in front of my parents who called my doctor's office spoke to a doctor on call (not mine, mind you) who decided that my mother was right and we shouldn't have to wait until I was passing out every single day. Long story short I was admitted that day. Three days later I was moved to cardiac ICU. A couple of fist sized clots in my left lung on top of my heart,, hypertensive aortic activity, blah blah blah. She's gonna die. But they didn't tell me. Until the following year, when in spite of my medication, they found two more fist sized clots, in my right lung. Then they couldn't tell me enough. So I waited to die a couple of years. And now here I am. My hair has fallen out, my teeth are falling out. I can't eat solid foods without it coming back to haunt me and the bathroom. Andd the pain is outrageous. Meanwhile, I'm still passing out. THey haven't even tried to figure out why I pass out 'cause they say everything else is emergent. So what's a girl to do. I'll tell you what, when my brain is working I read. Lots and lots of fan fiction. BTVS and ATS always my favorites. And I apologize here and now to everyone I've ever asked the same question two or three or more times. And guess what, they still don't know why I can't sleep. It's going on two and a half years. They say I'm a medical mystery because you're supposed to die without sleep. Should I be grateful? It's so hard to think sometimes. It takes me hours to get ready to go to the doctor. I brush my teeth. I have to lay down and rest. I wash my face. I have to lay down. It takes so long to get up the energy for a shower. I'm always afraid I'll pass out. And yes, I have fallen quite a few times in there. I live alone. So I just lay there until I can catch my breath. But I'm here and ready for devo79 Devo79 and her xangel writings. Anything, especially mpreg. Who knew I'd love it so much. or fangstress Fangstress and her Hive fiction. Oxygen Magnesium!