How Can I Stay Alive When My Brain Is Trying to Kill Me
What the hell did I do to deserve all this bad stuff to happen to me all at one time. maaaan!!! we do i begin.....oh! fuck it I don't even feel like typing about all the bad stuff that's happening to me cos it's just gonna make me cry more. ugh!!!!!! i really am starting to hate my life. i never thought that i would ever be the one to say that but it's true. I truly don't like anything about my life right now. it fuckin' sucks. i just wanna be a lil girl again and crawl up into a lil ball and cry for hours upon hours. have you ever needed a friend so bad and looked around and you couldn't find someone? no shoulder to cry on, no person to vent to. well that's what i feel like right now. my fuckin' like is in shambles and i have no one. i am not the person to throw self pitty partie so i'm not gonna just call someone out the blue and start complaining about how fucked up my life is right now. my so called friends don 't even call me anymore. well they all call when they need something....never to call and just see how my life is going. ugh! i truly see why people run away from home and there so called perfect lives to be homeless bums on the street. That's really what i feel like doing. sHHHHHHHIIIIITTTTT!!!!!!