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oh my god, i just had the best weekend EVER!
spent it with shereef, and i'm going to see if i can't get some of it down here because i don't want to forget ANY of it.
i guess i should say first and foremost that shereef thinks i am addicted to my lj and prolly wouldn't support this entry :)
so.
friday
my dad took me to the train station in lancaster and i finished a LOT of angels and demons on the train before i got to philly and met shereef. we jumped at each other and he gave me a bear hug and some woman yelled "let go of her, already!" at him which just prompted us to keep hugging and laughing. as we left the station we ran into adam, which was wierd, but cool......
went back to shereefs house for a bit and met his mother who is one of the sweetest women i have ever met - definately the sweetest crazy egyptian woman with a phD :)eventually his friend ian and ian's younger brother ben got there and we headed off to the tweeter center for the y100FEZtival. it was hot and i didn't really like anyone who played most of the day, but that ment that shereef and i spent a lot of time hanging out and talking about life in the grass with music in the background, which was wonderful. we made it up to the main stage and i talked to ian a bit more... turns out that he runs track at dickenson with my childhood friend andy keller, so we swapped stories about him for a while. this lead to stories of my kitten trees, killing gerbils (by accident!) and lots and lots of nakedness.
then! the beastie boys came on and they were fabulous - we danced a lot and yelled a lot and laughed a lto and smiled a LOT. shereef started dancing like andrew and i joined in which probably got even more wierd looks than the girls wearing the "i <3 roadhead" t-shirts, but when we saw a girl who really DOES dance as oddly and spastically as andrew we had to give up and leave it to her.
after the beastie boys the strokes came on and about 2/3 of the crowd left. i was exhuasted and fell asleep on shereefs sholder - our friendship is truly proof that girls and guys CAN be friends without any sexual tension whatsoever. it's a really reassuring thing... boys who tell me that sexual attraction is always involved start to make me cynical.
finally we went back to shereefs house and his friend katie met us there for the AMAZING 3 course egyption midnight dinner that his mom prepared for us. shereef has a big crush on katie and it was incredibly cute to see them together. it's been too long since he has found a girl that he really likes and he deserves to be happy. after everyone left we headed up to shereefs room where we talked until i fell asleep in his bed, forcing him to sleep on the futon - that boy is a true gentleman :)
i should say that his room at home looks exactly like the nest (or at least has exactly the same feel - the nest is our name for his room at school), and i got to see so many of my favorite pictures of the three of us on the walls - the three of us are shereef, andrew and me, by the by.
saturday
woke up and headed for the beach. it is ALWAYS too long between visits. it was hot, it was sunny, there was a breeze..... the only thing wrong was the hellish flies that bit us like crazy. i was literally covered in welts by the time the day was done. eventually we sat in the water up to our waists to read just to keep them away from us.
after the beach we watched the movie saved. it was really funny at first, but got preachy towards the end. at least shereef doesn't think i look like jenna malone though. i don't know why i'm so against looking like her, i think i just wanted to prove jj wrong - i wonder how he is doing.....
after that we headed to his friend jens house and drank a bit and watched some family guys and then i fell asleep for a couple of hours. i really am the worst college kid ever - who can't stay up past midnight on a saturday? that's right. i did make up a drink that i LOVE though - 2 shots vodka, 3 shots straight lemon juice (or more!) and fill the rest of the glass half an half with lemonaide and orange juice. you should all try it! i want to try half lemon juice half vodka shots, i think.....
sunday
finally, after a year of spending every weekend in philly and never going, we went to the art museum. it was shereefs first time inside, but he showed me all around his favorite places on the surrounding property. it was the best day in the world to lay outside and be happy but we were on a time constraint :( anyway, we sat in a gazebo and talked about school and people we love and what friendships really mean to us and what relationships mean and how people who are in love should treat each other. then! we went into the art museum and i think i should make this a bit removed because i start talking about sex, so......
when we went into the modern art wing, the wierdest thing happened - when i was in russia i was REALLY affected by the paintings i saw, but this was even more intense.
i was staring into an abstract painting made from lipstick instead of paint in the most intense and beautiul shades i have ever seen, and i just started ot get lost..... i could literally feel the painting on my body. the curves of the lines brushed against my thighs, the brush strokes painted their way down my neck, the colors felt smooth and cool like silk all over my body...... i know it sounds strange but it was a physical sensation. i literally became aroused by this completely non sexual painting - my pulse quickened, my breathing got heavy, my whole body got intensely warm and sensitive and tense and tight and i started thinking a lot less and just feeling a lot more. i remember the first time that i really messed around with someone - how when i got in the car to drive home i realized i felt wet and thought maybe i had gotten my period early because i just didn't know what was going on..... it was like that, and although i knew it wasn't my period this time i was still confused. i never expected to get this kind of response to pigment on canvas. and it wasn't just one painting, it happened over and over. mostly it happened with matisse, but it happened with a few other paintings too, that had perfect curves and deep reds and purples and brush strokes that looked like you could run your fingers through them. it was the most intense physical sensation i can remember having outside of a sexual act for a very very long time - when i came out i wanted to make love more than i can say. i wasn't horny, though, it was a very clean, pure, sexual longing. i don't really expect anyone to understand this, but i thought i'd write it anyway on the off chance that someone would. if you don't think i am crazy would you please comment and let me know?
after the art museum we walked around the park and had water ice and just talked some more. i have better conversations with shereef than i do with pretty much anyone else in the world.
i love him so very much, if you could spend a weekend with him you would understand why he is one of the best friends i have :)
spent it with shereef, and i'm going to see if i can't get some of it down here because i don't want to forget ANY of it.
i guess i should say first and foremost that shereef thinks i am addicted to my lj and prolly wouldn't support this entry :)
so.
friday
my dad took me to the train station in lancaster and i finished a LOT of angels and demons on the train before i got to philly and met shereef. we jumped at each other and he gave me a bear hug and some woman yelled "let go of her, already!" at him which just prompted us to keep hugging and laughing. as we left the station we ran into adam, which was wierd, but cool......
went back to shereefs house for a bit and met his mother who is one of the sweetest women i have ever met - definately the sweetest crazy egyptian woman with a phD :)eventually his friend ian and ian's younger brother ben got there and we headed off to the tweeter center for the y100FEZtival. it was hot and i didn't really like anyone who played most of the day, but that ment that shereef and i spent a lot of time hanging out and talking about life in the grass with music in the background, which was wonderful. we made it up to the main stage and i talked to ian a bit more... turns out that he runs track at dickenson with my childhood friend andy keller, so we swapped stories about him for a while. this lead to stories of my kitten trees, killing gerbils (by accident!) and lots and lots of nakedness.
then! the beastie boys came on and they were fabulous - we danced a lot and yelled a lot and laughed a lto and smiled a LOT. shereef started dancing like andrew and i joined in which probably got even more wierd looks than the girls wearing the "i <3 roadhead" t-shirts, but when we saw a girl who really DOES dance as oddly and spastically as andrew we had to give up and leave it to her.
after the beastie boys the strokes came on and about 2/3 of the crowd left. i was exhuasted and fell asleep on shereefs sholder - our friendship is truly proof that girls and guys CAN be friends without any sexual tension whatsoever. it's a really reassuring thing... boys who tell me that sexual attraction is always involved start to make me cynical.
finally we went back to shereefs house and his friend katie met us there for the AMAZING 3 course egyption midnight dinner that his mom prepared for us. shereef has a big crush on katie and it was incredibly cute to see them together. it's been too long since he has found a girl that he really likes and he deserves to be happy. after everyone left we headed up to shereefs room where we talked until i fell asleep in his bed, forcing him to sleep on the futon - that boy is a true gentleman :)
i should say that his room at home looks exactly like the nest (or at least has exactly the same feel - the nest is our name for his room at school), and i got to see so many of my favorite pictures of the three of us on the walls - the three of us are shereef, andrew and me, by the by.
saturday
woke up and headed for the beach. it is ALWAYS too long between visits. it was hot, it was sunny, there was a breeze..... the only thing wrong was the hellish flies that bit us like crazy. i was literally covered in welts by the time the day was done. eventually we sat in the water up to our waists to read just to keep them away from us.
after the beach we watched the movie saved. it was really funny at first, but got preachy towards the end. at least shereef doesn't think i look like jenna malone though. i don't know why i'm so against looking like her, i think i just wanted to prove jj wrong - i wonder how he is doing.....
after that we headed to his friend jens house and drank a bit and watched some family guys and then i fell asleep for a couple of hours. i really am the worst college kid ever - who can't stay up past midnight on a saturday? that's right. i did make up a drink that i LOVE though - 2 shots vodka, 3 shots straight lemon juice (or more!) and fill the rest of the glass half an half with lemonaide and orange juice. you should all try it! i want to try half lemon juice half vodka shots, i think.....
sunday
finally, after a year of spending every weekend in philly and never going, we went to the art museum. it was shereefs first time inside, but he showed me all around his favorite places on the surrounding property. it was the best day in the world to lay outside and be happy but we were on a time constraint :( anyway, we sat in a gazebo and talked about school and people we love and what friendships really mean to us and what relationships mean and how people who are in love should treat each other. then! we went into the art museum and i think i should make this a bit removed because i start talking about sex, so......
when we went into the modern art wing, the wierdest thing happened - when i was in russia i was REALLY affected by the paintings i saw, but this was even more intense.
i was staring into an abstract painting made from lipstick instead of paint in the most intense and beautiul shades i have ever seen, and i just started ot get lost..... i could literally feel the painting on my body. the curves of the lines brushed against my thighs, the brush strokes painted their way down my neck, the colors felt smooth and cool like silk all over my body...... i know it sounds strange but it was a physical sensation. i literally became aroused by this completely non sexual painting - my pulse quickened, my breathing got heavy, my whole body got intensely warm and sensitive and tense and tight and i started thinking a lot less and just feeling a lot more. i remember the first time that i really messed around with someone - how when i got in the car to drive home i realized i felt wet and thought maybe i had gotten my period early because i just didn't know what was going on..... it was like that, and although i knew it wasn't my period this time i was still confused. i never expected to get this kind of response to pigment on canvas. and it wasn't just one painting, it happened over and over. mostly it happened with matisse, but it happened with a few other paintings too, that had perfect curves and deep reds and purples and brush strokes that looked like you could run your fingers through them. it was the most intense physical sensation i can remember having outside of a sexual act for a very very long time - when i came out i wanted to make love more than i can say. i wasn't horny, though, it was a very clean, pure, sexual longing. i don't really expect anyone to understand this, but i thought i'd write it anyway on the off chance that someone would. if you don't think i am crazy would you please comment and let me know?
after the art museum we walked around the park and had water ice and just talked some more. i have better conversations with shereef than i do with pretty much anyone else in the world.
i love him so very much, if you could spend a weekend with him you would understand why he is one of the best friends i have :)