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[misstang]

It is now the proper time to update....I am drunk and it is 2am and i will say what shall be said

Life is great--never greater infact, but there is one thing you have asked about but not heard and that is her. The one. The girl that used to be my best friend--or so i thought. Let me tell you now

She gets a boyfriend--good for her right WRONG, since

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Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

Have you called me? Maybe I didn't want to call you because I was afraid of what you would say if I had called after however long we didn't talk. Did you ever call me to hang out? No. Granted I didn't call you to hang out either but how can you possibly tell me that I don't know how to handle both a relationship and a boyfriend? You can't. The reason you can't is because you or me haven't called to ask each other TO hang out. In fact, I think it would be awesome if you, me, Josh, and Charles could all hang out. But, yes I have actually. I hang out w/Karen and both Tiffany's all the time. You and me just haven't been hanging out so you can't say that. But then again we really couldn't hang out because you think Charles is annoying even though he has never done or said anything to you to make him that way. Speaking of relationships...you did do that with Josh by the way. Don't tell me you didn't either. The point being was that I didn't care. If you and Josh hung out (which except for coming over to my house for like an hour or bonfires or getting drunk) you were with him all the time. I had no problem with that. Because I was happy for you and it didn't matter to me because I knew we would still see each other. OH...by the way...I wasn't staring out my window...I saw that you and Josh were there THAT'S when I looked out my window. I was looking at every car passing by...not just you. You said Josh was going to pick it up and I didn't want to go downstairs so Charles said he would. If it wasn't for the fact that Josh hadn't gone back to your car...YOU wouldn't have went up to the door anyways. You never begged me to come over. I came over all the time for stuff. I have called you back all the time and I have called you besides when you have called me. So what you said is untrue. I asked you once...excuse me BEGGED you to go with me to White Castle....I didn't know it was so wrong to ask you to go wo White Castle with me. You didn't go anyways. I don't know how you can't say that I never helped you with problems because everytime you asked me to I did it. AND I helped your family out. Like the time you called and asked if I would go over to your house and check to make sure your little brothers were okay...I was glad to do it. I know big whoop right? Going to check on your brothers 7 minutes away from my house. At the time it was because I know that is what you are thinking right now. I would do anything for you or your family Kristina. You know that as well as I do. The only time I never helped you with your Josh problems was when you went to the Kenny Chesney concert. ONLY TIME. Every other time I was there for you so you can't say that. OH YEA....I forgot the other time when you needed $300 and asked me to take it out of my dad's money or MY own bank account KNOWING the situation I am in. If this had been you in the situation I am in I never EVER would have even thought about asking you for money. These aren't excuses Kristina...they are facts. So yes...after reviewing all of that...I guess I wouldn't want me as a best friend either. Considering how bad of a job I am being one.

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

First, i was drunk when i posted, second, No No and No....but im not going to blow this into a huge ordeal because i have been just fine. Think back about a month or so--maybe more. I called you all the time to hang out not avaiable, weekend, obsoleet because you were with charles, CALLED YOU AT WORK CRYING MY FUCKING EYES OUT BECAUSE I NEEDED YOU, and what was your response, you were hanging out with charles. Through all that shit with josh i sat in my room and balled my eyes NOT for josh, because i didnt have you to talk to you because you were with charles. and about charles, no your wrong again i have no problems with him what so ever, hes a great guy, hes great to you. I wouldnt date him, but who cares. I have no problem with him. I DO have a problem when you came over to my house like two times without him and sat on the phone with him the whole time, and i do have a problem with him telling you he doesnt want you to drink when hes not there. Anyway back to the issue. A month ago i would call you you were busy, when you werent busy you were with charles. We would hang out for a couple hours on wed blah blah blah. Then i got a little fed up with having to call you everyday to see if you were free or not. and NO nicole you did not call me. I called you. I called you everyday to say hi see what you were doing asked how class was. How many times did you call me to see how class was or how my new job went. NONE, NEVER! Did you ever call me and say, im bored im coming over. NO. Did you ever call me to say, hey lets party tonight, NO. So then you call me twice in one week. First to ask me a question and then again to ask me an ebay question. I hang up the phone, and look at josh and say. Gees, at least she calls me when she needs something. So then i decide. Im done. Im not going to call her anymore. And if its really important that we hang out, she will call me and ask me to hang out. AND DID YOU. NO! That is what this is about. Not charles, not who helps who more, not anything but the fact that you cant so much as pick up the fucking phone and ask me how my day is. So you little smart ass reply here means nothing. Because its all bs. And there was nothing wrong with you asking me to go to white castle except for the fact that thats the only time you call, is when you need something. And about josh. Wrong again. I was still with you 24/7 WITHOUT josh there. In fact in the begininng of our relationship i saw him at bedtime and thats about it because he worked and i worked and on my lunch, WHERE WAS I? After work? WHERE WAS I?....And dont even give me some bull shit about shit you do for my family one fucking time i ask you to do something and your a hero now? I called you as a last fucking resort because i didnt want to inconveinence you but i didnt have a choice. And fuck the 300 hundred dollars. I wouldnt of asked you if i was desperate and you know that, and no i dont know the situation its a different story every day, maybe if someone called me and filled me in once and a while i would Know and then when i do come over to try to talk about it with you and your mom and offer my fucking advice and go out of my way at work trying to find something for you, i say one word and get interupted by know it all charles. So yes i guess your right i do find him pretty annoying something, but i have never had a problem with him....the problem with you and you alone. And its easy to say you still hang out with tiffany and karen cuz you never hung with them that often to begin with so there not really missing much are they. And have you noticed with them nicole...WHO CALLS WHO TO HANG OUT?

Anyway, thats about all i have left to say, and im sober this time. So i guess thats that!!

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

I didn't need you to go to white castle with me Kristina...I havewent by myself a million times...I didn't need you there. What would I have needed you for? Hold my hand? No. The botom line is....you just don't want to hang out anymore and I get that. I think about this everyday. Like hm...I wish I could call Kristina. I AM TOO AFRAID TO CALL YOU KRISTINA. Afraid of what you will say. After all this time. Plus...if I did call you would you pick up? Maybe I will try calling you one day this week just to say hi and see what you are up to. I don't want the friendship to end but if you want it to what's the point in trying? So...I will once again say...do you have comment?

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

What the fuck do you mean do i have a comment, and nicole...listen to yourself. Your affraid to call me. Who is affraid to call their supposed best friend. OR your affraid because you know you fucked up. Because you know that you shouldve called a month ago...but never did. Untill now, untill i have to bring it up AGAIN. Because if i recall correctly i did i stupid post in your journal last time and you said some bull shit about "now that i know it wont happen anymore" and look it happened again. So why should i expect you to change? I dont. The matter of the fact is you had a decision to make and you made it. And that was ignor kristina and call charles 24/7. And again i will repeat this has nothing to do with him as a person what-so-ever he has done nothing wrong besides be to obsseive which is understandable for both of you in a first relationship, but to defend yourself by trying to say this is both of our faults is stupid, Because it isnt. i stopped calling you on purpose to see what would happen, you stopped voluntarily becaus you had more important things to do. And what do you mean you dont want this friendship to end. What friendship--there hasnt been one for the last month? You miss it now?

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

I have been missing it. I am not defending anything and i never said you were wrong or whatever. the point is i miss our friendship it just didn't sound like you cared anymore about it. I was just wondering if you did. That's all. I am not looking to fight or anything. How could I not miss our friendship? Don't you?

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

Of i miss the friendship we had, which hasnt been the same in forever, and never will be that was again. I stopped calling you on purpose to see if you would call me, and you didn't call. What the fuck am i suppose to think after that? Especially after we just faught about this a month ago.

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

I think that you both need to get over the little things each of you have done in the past month and be friends again. Not to be mean or anything, but this whole conversation (not that its any of my business) seems a bit childish and over-exaggerated. You two have been friends for so long and have been through a lot together, do you really want to throw that all away over this? Im not saying that your right Kristina- because if you were confident in the friendship before this whole ordeal...you wouldent have to do little tests on her, etc. And im not saying that your right either Nichole, you and Kristina have been friends forever and you and charles have been dating for a month or so...Kristina has senority over charles. Theres an old saying to describe whats going on, "Bros B4 Hoes", and in this case, Charles is the hoe.

What im trying to get at, and probably cant express through typing, is that you both know that you miss eachother and that you want to be the very best of friends again, so just get over it and drop it. Be regular again- spend time with Charles and spent time with Josh, but make sure you reserve a couple hours a day to hang out with the one person that was always there for you...it is the holidays after all!

:)

-Anthony

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

Anthony i respect that i really do. It probably the most respectful thing thats ever come from you. But its to far gone. Thanks though.

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

yea Anthony, I wish it were that easy :/

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

well what happens if i call you now?

Re: Do you have a comment to this?? I hope you do

[tennisshoefreak]

I dont really know what i would do. But i would like to know where you are living and how everything is going?