Nov 29, 2005 21:17
i hate your addiction. it kills. and the same time that u are, i see the worst of everything in you. when you're the one thats suppose to be the influence on me. when ur the one im suppose to be lookin up to. ur the one that has more potential, more of everything that i envy. but u chose something different and forgot all the people that are around you, who loves you. i see the worst of me in you. the final roads i would take when i come to a dead end. u take those roads for me and makes me turn back. i see you suffer with something i could've suffered from. your death bed and last words still haunts. and i hope you're just as strong as last time to get thru this one.
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nothings great again. tin, my couz's surgery, my mah and her stupid lies, da buo and da gu in the hospitol, me starting to write again... now it feels im hardly looking foward to winter break when the girls come back. it prolly wont even be that great. why fucking lie and obliterate? the only thing i want is something i can't have, the hallucinating sleeping pill. i sound hypocritical. im the one thats feens for these stupid shit.