To love, to be loved and wanting to love~
so.. I know I havent posted anything in a while...
but.. bleh, fuck it XD i'm too happy and relieved right now to put on something relevant in my life...
Except that I'm glad you seem to be fine enough to post something here yet not giving any signs of life while I go here and bite my nails off in worry something might have happened...
Not like I have the right to complain... nuh uh~ *shrugs*
I'm seriously trying to not get bitter here... you are fine and that's all that matters~ lets cling to the happy thoughts here~
doesnt change the fact that I feel a little like an idiot... nhyaaaaa... or that I'm still waiting (again, like an idiot)for you to talk to me while I should be already somewhere else...
Someday, will I be as importand to you like you are to me??
ahhh shouldnt be thinking this!!! of course I am... I hope.. I mean, this is just pissed off me talking... dont take me seriously... yer alive and kicking... And mostly I feel INCREDIBLY relieved...
Happy thoughts! Happy thoughts!
Maybe I dont have enough patience... ahhh... and now I feel like a fucking drama queen feeling happy and bitter at the same time and bitching about it *rofl*
I'm sorry...
Is all my fault thou.. all my fault...
I guess it cant be helped... but you are still my top priority adobe anything else... the one I think when I wake up and the one I dream about at night.. I appologise if its too overwhelming...
Am I?... sometimes I wonder... if that's what have made my prev relationships fail that bad... *ponders*
I guess I'll leave for a while then... gotta clear my mind a bit and be glad you seem fine...
there will be time for us later... please take care of yourself~♥
Ran
but.. bleh, fuck it XD i'm too happy and relieved right now to put on something relevant in my life...
Except that I'm glad you seem to be fine enough to post something here yet not giving any signs of life while I go here and bite my nails off in worry something might have happened...
Not like I have the right to complain... nuh uh~ *shrugs*
I'm seriously trying to not get bitter here... you are fine and that's all that matters~ lets cling to the happy thoughts here~
doesnt change the fact that I feel a little like an idiot... nhyaaaaa... or that I'm still waiting (again, like an idiot)for you to talk to me while I should be already somewhere else...
Someday, will I be as importand to you like you are to me??
ahhh shouldnt be thinking this!!! of course I am... I hope.. I mean, this is just pissed off me talking... dont take me seriously... yer alive and kicking... And mostly I feel INCREDIBLY relieved...
Happy thoughts! Happy thoughts!
Maybe I dont have enough patience... ahhh... and now I feel like a fucking drama queen feeling happy and bitter at the same time and bitching about it *rofl*
I'm sorry...
Is all my fault thou.. all my fault...
I guess it cant be helped... but you are still my top priority adobe anything else... the one I think when I wake up and the one I dream about at night.. I appologise if its too overwhelming...
Am I?... sometimes I wonder... if that's what have made my prev relationships fail that bad... *ponders*
I guess I'll leave for a while then... gotta clear my mind a bit and be glad you seem fine...
there will be time for us later... please take care of yourself~♥
Ran