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why am i messing things up? don't wanna lose again... but why this feelings now? think i'm not being needy or clingy but why this coldness now? is this the right way?
i just wish i could be who i am. with no games. i wish i could cry in front of him and say everything i need so much. but i can't. because of all those rules.. "never do it, never do that in front of him!" gosh, why things are so complicated when it comes to relationships?
think i haven't got over the past. guess i'm still hurt. guess i wanted him to be hurt for a little more than just one day. guess i should have waited a little more to take him back. guess i really want to hear that he's really sorry for everything he has done to me, for every tear he made me drop, for every time he made me feel scared, afraid of losing him, for every cold word he said, never thinking about how i felt.
guess i really want to hear his apologies. maybe this damn feeling just go away...
i just wish i could be who i am. with no games. i wish i could cry in front of him and say everything i need so much. but i can't. because of all those rules.. "never do it, never do that in front of him!" gosh, why things are so complicated when it comes to relationships?
think i haven't got over the past. guess i'm still hurt. guess i wanted him to be hurt for a little more than just one day. guess i should have waited a little more to take him back. guess i really want to hear that he's really sorry for everything he has done to me, for every tear he made me drop, for every time he made me feel scared, afraid of losing him, for every cold word he said, never thinking about how i felt.
guess i really want to hear his apologies. maybe this damn feeling just go away...