happy hump day
oiy vay...it's only wednesday? and also, its finally wednesday. haha. i'm loving research, but i'm also realizing how demanding it is. probably not nearly as demanding as the med-school route though ;). yeah, i've realized in the last week or so that this summer is the first time i'm really doing the whole "grown up" thing... no me gusta. i mean, its good to know i CAN do it. i just don't want to, haha. and i absolutely cannot imagine life if i had to do all of this working stuff AND take care of OTHER people...taking care of myself is challenging enough! after i work a 10-12 hour day, i've gotta go back to the apartment, make myself dinner, finish up notes for the day, do laundry/clean the apartment, get stuff ready for the next day, and still find time to socialize? crazy. oh yeah, i forgot sleep lol. and there's a million other things that have to happen through the week ie grocery shopping. ew, whats that all about?? sooo expensive, and so difficult to plan meals and such. i know i'm complaining a lot. it really isn't THAT bad, it just takes a lot of adjustment. haha, and by the time i get adjusted, the program will be over, and i'll be back to school where i'm at least a little bit taken care of!! anyway. i'm going to kc this weekend because i have monday and tuesday off. i'm really excited. i miss my family so much...this summer has been really difficult being away from them. all i want in my life right now is to cuddle up with claire and gabrielle and talk to them. they're no doubt the two sweetest, most special people in the world. i heart them. its sad that they're growing up and i have to be away for it. but it makes me really glad i stuck around home for the first year after gabby was born. excellent decision.
you know who my other favorite person is? my bff, of course. haha, who is also the only other person who reads this. and i love her for it!! especially because i know how much she dislikes my science rantings lol.
yeah, so how about those tangents? lol. yeah, i'm going to go wait around until i can start some surgeries. yay surgery. hopefully my rats live through it today!! omg you know what? that reminded me of something. last week i had my first successful surgery, and every day since then i've been willing that poor creature to stay alive, and have been seriously excited every time i would check on him and he was sill alive. so then yesterday, i finished my rounds of behavioral tests on him...and then i had to decapitate the poor thing. i was actually sad. i felt like i was playing some kind of cruel joke on him.... "STAY ALIVE, STAY ALIVE, THANK YOU FOR STAYING ALIVE..........................NOW I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!!!"
hahaha. and i'm off to do the same thing to a lot more rats. you can tell i don't feel THAT bad about it! :^D
you know who my other favorite person is? my bff, of course. haha, who is also the only other person who reads this. and i love her for it!! especially because i know how much she dislikes my science rantings lol.
yeah, so how about those tangents? lol. yeah, i'm going to go wait around until i can start some surgeries. yay surgery. hopefully my rats live through it today!! omg you know what? that reminded me of something. last week i had my first successful surgery, and every day since then i've been willing that poor creature to stay alive, and have been seriously excited every time i would check on him and he was sill alive. so then yesterday, i finished my rounds of behavioral tests on him...and then i had to decapitate the poor thing. i was actually sad. i felt like i was playing some kind of cruel joke on him.... "STAY ALIVE, STAY ALIVE, THANK YOU FOR STAYING ALIVE..........................NOW I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!!!"
hahaha. and i'm off to do the same thing to a lot more rats. you can tell i don't feel THAT bad about it! :^D