I'm Not Ok. I Promise.
Okay. So I don't know exactly how many people have been fortunate to catch the grape vine on this one but I'm depressed. Appearently everybody's worried. But I'm not gonna do anything stupid. I won't hurt myself, I won't kill myself. I'm not gonna give up. I refuse. I'm too stubborn for that stuff. Just the thought makes me choke with disgust.
I don't know whats wrong but it's really really bad. And I can't take it, but I'm doing the best I can. And I hate being asked 20000000000 times what's wrong because honestly I have NO CLUE what to tell you. I could probably think of things to tell you that would make sense or I could tell you what you want to hear but I won't. It's just not that easy this time. And I KNOW that I'm gonna be threatened with being put on medication here pretty soon cause it wouldn't be the first time but I don't need it. I can do this. But just because I dont' wanna go out means you should make arrangements behind my back for me to go out! That isn't fair! What if I don't wanna huh?! And now I can't say no when I never even got a choice to begin with.
I don't know whats wrong but it's really really bad. And I can't take it, but I'm doing the best I can. And I hate being asked 20000000000 times what's wrong because honestly I have NO CLUE what to tell you. I could probably think of things to tell you that would make sense or I could tell you what you want to hear but I won't. It's just not that easy this time. And I KNOW that I'm gonna be threatened with being put on medication here pretty soon cause it wouldn't be the first time but I don't need it. I can do this. But just because I dont' wanna go out means you should make arrangements behind my back for me to go out! That isn't fair! What if I don't wanna huh?! And now I can't say no when I never even got a choice to begin with.