Changes
I have no clue what I last posted... but here are the things going on with me... I graduated, I quit smoking, I started walking 2 miles or more everyday, I got a car, the transmission went on my car, I'll be doing some americorps program for the next year... here's the dilemma...
I've been offered a position in MN and I have to accept or reject soon. It would mean living with my mom for a year which I don't really like the idea of. But it would also give me a chance to save a lot of money. I think I'm also going to be offered a position on Milwaukee but I won't know until I week before I'd have to start the position in MN. I don't want to leave Chris.... I really don't... I start crying thinking about it... I know that the position in MN is the only sure thing I have right now though so I can't turn it down... Oh I so don't know what to do... I wish i could find out more about the position in Milwaukee but the person running ti just left for 2 weeks. So where the hell does that leave me.... oh yeah doing the one thing I didn't want to have to do after college, moving back in with my mom. I don't know if I can live there... I have no one but family there... I have Chris here... I know we aren't dating and I know I still live in some fantacy that he will fall in love with me which is never going to happen. Maybe it's time for me to suck it up and realize I'm nothing to Chris so there really shouldn't be much holding me back. I'm so lost I don't know what to do.
I do have an interview today... maybe that will give me a chance to stay....
I've been offered a position in MN and I have to accept or reject soon. It would mean living with my mom for a year which I don't really like the idea of. But it would also give me a chance to save a lot of money. I think I'm also going to be offered a position on Milwaukee but I won't know until I week before I'd have to start the position in MN. I don't want to leave Chris.... I really don't... I start crying thinking about it... I know that the position in MN is the only sure thing I have right now though so I can't turn it down... Oh I so don't know what to do... I wish i could find out more about the position in Milwaukee but the person running ti just left for 2 weeks. So where the hell does that leave me.... oh yeah doing the one thing I didn't want to have to do after college, moving back in with my mom. I don't know if I can live there... I have no one but family there... I have Chris here... I know we aren't dating and I know I still live in some fantacy that he will fall in love with me which is never going to happen. Maybe it's time for me to suck it up and realize I'm nothing to Chris so there really shouldn't be much holding me back. I'm so lost I don't know what to do.
I do have an interview today... maybe that will give me a chance to stay....