kill me please
Well today i opened up my banking account i was excited.. i even get a check card oh yes.. I also took 2 more tests today at school..so i now i have 15 paces left.. i am hoping now by the end of this week i will have... like 13 but who knows.. I went to the movies with jason it was fun we saw Be Cool... which made me almost pee my pants.. FUNNY!
you ever feel like sometimes all people have to say about you are negative things.. like it seems like they dont know that may be hurtful.. but.. it doesn't change it.. i mean.. i just want to crawl in a hole for one day and just be quiet and not worry about anything..like no unnecessary talking or anything..but everyone knows that won't happen.. i just feel like people have no clue where i am coming from..nothing personal to anyone i started my lovely cycle today so i am a little on the edge..
I am just so stinking tired of being alone but i am so picky about guys.. It's becoming now where i am unsure if even like him or is it that i just want to be with someone.. and that sucks.. I dont want to feel like that i rather not like anyone it makes my life more simple.. but i guess.. i have no say.. And now i am at the point where i am like wow should i tell him i like him or should i do like i always do and just keep it hush hush.. I hate to change the subject but i definatly need to start losing weight i am getting big as a cow..not good i think i am going to exercise in the morn. but dont write it in stone most likely will not happen.. I am going to bed now..
Also i miss Jason (marine in Iraq) alot.. I try not to think of him..but its so hard its like no matter what i do he gets brought back up in the conversation. I AM SO CONFUSED...!!!!!!!!
<3 AMANDA
you ever feel like sometimes all people have to say about you are negative things.. like it seems like they dont know that may be hurtful.. but.. it doesn't change it.. i mean.. i just want to crawl in a hole for one day and just be quiet and not worry about anything..like no unnecessary talking or anything..but everyone knows that won't happen.. i just feel like people have no clue where i am coming from..nothing personal to anyone i started my lovely cycle today so i am a little on the edge..
I am just so stinking tired of being alone but i am so picky about guys.. It's becoming now where i am unsure if even like him or is it that i just want to be with someone.. and that sucks.. I dont want to feel like that i rather not like anyone it makes my life more simple.. but i guess.. i have no say.. And now i am at the point where i am like wow should i tell him i like him or should i do like i always do and just keep it hush hush.. I hate to change the subject but i definatly need to start losing weight i am getting big as a cow..not good i think i am going to exercise in the morn. but dont write it in stone most likely will not happen.. I am going to bed now..
Also i miss Jason (marine in Iraq) alot.. I try not to think of him..but its so hard its like no matter what i do he gets brought back up in the conversation. I AM SO CONFUSED...!!!!!!!!
<3 AMANDA