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So I can feel the sadness start to sink in.
I have a difficult situation with Frankie.
I hate hate hate not being with him, but things between us are so bad right now that we just can't be together.It's a damned if you do, damned if you don't sort of thing.
I definitely don't want to date anyone else. It doesn't feel like that sort of thing at all. I just hope we take a real break, because we've never really done that before. Not see each other or talk very much for a month or so, then have a fresh start when I'm back for the summer. I love him. We're young. This shit happens I guess. But it just sucks. I miss him already, don't have an appetite, just want to go to sleep to forget about it. He makes me feel better and worse than anyone alive. We're so different. But I just need him I guess. I don't function without him, I really don't. I just feel like something's missing. So I want to save this thing. Take a breather. I hope it works. I hope it doesn't get as ugly as last time.
I have a difficult situation with Frankie.
I hate hate hate not being with him, but things between us are so bad right now that we just can't be together.It's a damned if you do, damned if you don't sort of thing.
I definitely don't want to date anyone else. It doesn't feel like that sort of thing at all. I just hope we take a real break, because we've never really done that before. Not see each other or talk very much for a month or so, then have a fresh start when I'm back for the summer. I love him. We're young. This shit happens I guess. But it just sucks. I miss him already, don't have an appetite, just want to go to sleep to forget about it. He makes me feel better and worse than anyone alive. We're so different. But I just need him I guess. I don't function without him, I really don't. I just feel like something's missing. So I want to save this thing. Take a breather. I hope it works. I hope it doesn't get as ugly as last time.