when it rains, it pours.
you know when you have that burning feeling in yr throat, right before yr about to cry..but you can't burst out in tears b/c people are around? yeah, i have that right now. i dont know why but all of a sudden my dad's being a real asshole about money..but it's not with anyone else but me. granted, i spend a fair amount of his money..but so does my sister. he's putting restrictions on me for no reason. he won't let me go to new york with tomy b/c he said "all i'll be doing is spending money". not true..all i'll be doing is spending time with tomy and his cousin in a beautiful place called ithaca. but then he orders 4 baseball game tickets for my sister, her boyfriend, my sisters friend and himself for saturday night. fuck this place.
i've tried every which way to befriend my sister but it never ends up working. we're just too different. she's really stuck up, i'm not. she's really dramatic, i'm not AS dramatic. she's really selfish...so am i, but thats not a good quality to share. whatever. fuck this place.
my mom, schokingly, has been the only one trying to make amends. it's nice to know my mom- after all our shit- is still willing. ever since i told her how much of an asshole she's been, she's turned over a new leaf and has let go of a lot of things. she's nice..it's weird, but i welcome it. i almost told her tonight in a REALLY long vent e-mail about my dad and to sister that i plan on living in lancaster next summer with tomy. it might break her heart, but i don't think it will. if i explain to her WHY i'm moving out there..i think she'll agree that it's a good thing and it'll give me the experience to live off my own money. i'd come home for occasions and various weekends, its not like they'd never see me again. i'm excited to tell her about it because i think she'll agree that even though it's far away, it's something i should learn to do for myself. my sister will despise the idea and my dad will just worry about me all the time. i'm growing up...can't they tell that by now?
i've tried every which way to befriend my sister but it never ends up working. we're just too different. she's really stuck up, i'm not. she's really dramatic, i'm not AS dramatic. she's really selfish...so am i, but thats not a good quality to share. whatever. fuck this place.
my mom, schokingly, has been the only one trying to make amends. it's nice to know my mom- after all our shit- is still willing. ever since i told her how much of an asshole she's been, she's turned over a new leaf and has let go of a lot of things. she's nice..it's weird, but i welcome it. i almost told her tonight in a REALLY long vent e-mail about my dad and to sister that i plan on living in lancaster next summer with tomy. it might break her heart, but i don't think it will. if i explain to her WHY i'm moving out there..i think she'll agree that it's a good thing and it'll give me the experience to live off my own money. i'd come home for occasions and various weekends, its not like they'd never see me again. i'm excited to tell her about it because i think she'll agree that even though it's far away, it's something i should learn to do for myself. my sister will despise the idea and my dad will just worry about me all the time. i'm growing up...can't they tell that by now?