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I want to know people. All the hiding and concealment is driving me crazy. It doesn't feel real. If they won't let me get close, then what will we have left after the first thrill fades away?
The word "bitch" is thrown around a lot around here. People use bitch on girls and on guys which I find totally weird. I will probably never get used to it. I've said the word "bitch" in 2005 more frequently than I ever did all the other years of my life.
Not good.
Even though it's a harmless sort of situation, the way I put on a piece of drama to deceive someone...makes me a little worried. I don't see how I can believe myself to be trusting and open and genuine when I can just as easily go wide-eyed and devious within the next.
I think about myself too much.
The word "bitch" is thrown around a lot around here. People use bitch on girls and on guys which I find totally weird. I will probably never get used to it. I've said the word "bitch" in 2005 more frequently than I ever did all the other years of my life.
Not good.
Even though it's a harmless sort of situation, the way I put on a piece of drama to deceive someone...makes me a little worried. I don't see how I can believe myself to be trusting and open and genuine when I can just as easily go wide-eyed and devious within the next.
I think about myself too much.