losing all hope

[missnish]

Why can't we go back in time and be how we used to be
So young and in love
Nothing would stnad in the way of our love
Sometimes I need you to just hold me
& say that you love me
But you don't
I love you has become a default
Its automatic
But sometimes I don't see any meaning
behind it
We used to talk about us for hours
Be so thankful that we had each other
I'm still in that moment
You've moved on
You say:
"Thats the way things are when your
with someone in the first year or so."
Well I still feel the same way I did
2 years ago
I want to feel like you do to
We never have tim efor us
Its always a problem..there is always a problem
It's sickening.
I'm tired of problems.
God I just wish I could go back in time
So badly it makes me cry
Everytime I think about how things were
so good for me
And how good I had it
I cry
Thats all I do now
I cry to myself
Because I can't cry to anyone else
And its the loneliest feeling I have
ever felt
I feel hopeless
Empty.
Hopeless.
I'm tired of this shit of a life.