Gravity - Chapter Two
Title: Gravity
Author: missmun
Pairing: YunJae
Genre: Romance, angst
Rating: PG
Length: chaptered
Chapter: 2/4 - For You To Live Your Life
Disclaimer:
They are not mine.
Summary: This is only a story about YunJae started from their separation. When Jaejoong decided to leave Yunho and wanted Yunho to forget him.
Chapter 1
Soundtracks:
For You It’s Separation, To Me It’s Waiting - Kim Jae Joong
It’s Still Love - Fly To The Sky
Lyrics (Hangeul + Eng translation) + Download links ( Here )
Jaejoong’s POV
I sighed. It’s been a week since my last meeting with Yunho in SM building. But it seemed like a thousand years has passed. I looked again the picture in my laptop wallpaper; it’s Dong Bang Shin Ki. I saw Yunho was smiling there. I really love his smile.
But… I feel… empty? Yeah, since I left him. I feel alone.
I went to living room and turned TV on, thought that it might make me forget about him for a while. But I saw about his news, about him dating a secret girl. My heart broke into pieces. I believe in him, I know he wouldn’t do this to me, we have promised -he has promised me- that we’ll be together again. But, I saw him smiling. He’s happy. He’s happy now. Is he happy because of his new girlfriend?
I knew that his dad never accept about rumor that Yunho and I are in a love relationship. And I knew his dad hoped Yunho to date a girl to get him out of this nonsense rumor. Now, Yunho has a girlfriend, his dad must be happy with this news.
Should I give up? My love will never become true, we’ll never be together. Too many obstacles in our path, I’m not sure we can through these all.
But this meant… our group will never reunite again. And it’s my fault, because of my sinful love, my selfish love.
***
I want you to forget me
Don’t hesitate
For now.
(For You It’s Separation, To Me It’s Waiting - Kim Jae Joong)
I took my jacket and went out to take a walk. I ended up in a street food stall where Yunho and I always spent in midnight. It’s only about 5 people there and I could see one of them… it’s Yunho, his head laid on the table where there were about 4 bottles of Soju. I walked closer and I could hear it clearly he mumbled my name.
“Yunho-yah…” I knew he was drunk, but I wanted to talk to him. “You can live without me, can’t you?”
“Joongie…” he mumbled again, I guessed he didn’t know I’m here. His eyes were closed. He seemed unconscious.
“Yunho, is the rumor true? Do you really have a girlfriend?” I realized I was stupid because asking that question. Now, he’s in front of me and drunk which may be because of me. So how could he think about other girl when a name he always called is my name? I smiled bitterly. I knew he still loved me, but it hurt me more to see him like this. How could I let someone I love become like this? I heard he always get drunk anytime he has problems. And I knew I’m one of his biggest problems.
“Yunho, now I want to just let you go. Live your life…” tears started to fall down on my cheeks. “Yunho-yah… Be happy, be strong, and be healthy. Don’t worry about me, just forget me. Forget me…” I paused a while to wipe my tears. “I don’t know what future will bring us. Maybe we can be together again… or not.” I sobbed.
“Forget me… and goodbye… for now.”
***
It was when JYJ held a concert in Shanghai. I remembered well, I had visited this city with Yunho, with the rest TVXQ members. We’re still happy and we don’t have any problems back then. But those all only remained as unforgettable memories.
To be honest, I felt incomplete every time I had to perform with JYJ, it’s… different when Changmin and Yunho with us. I felt something’s missing.
What will be the same (maybe) is the red ocean that we will always see. I never want to lose that beautiful sight that our Cassiopeia gave. And… why must they stubbornly call themselves Cassiopeia even though we, JYJ, are not in TVXQ anymore? Did… did they know that our soul is still belonged to a name… TVXQ?
I felt that this concert was a bit different than other JYJ concerts. It might be because I had some sweet memories with Yunho in Shanghai, so it’s only Yunho, Yunho and Yunho that I could think about all day. And I saw so many YunJae placards too. I heard so many fans shouted Yunho’s name out, it made me wanna cry. It was when the MC interviewed me, Cassiopeia kept shouting “Jung Yunho” and I felt nervous suddenly. I was happy that there were some YunJae fans, but… it’s nothing without Yunho. Yunho…
***
This is my love
My heart is broken from letting you go
Even if I calmly turn away first
It’s still love
(It’s Still Love - Fly To The Sky)
Seoul, South Korea.
Today is my free day, and I didn’t know why I was so emotional today. I remembered again the concert in Shanghai a couple days ago. I cried during the concert… just because… I remembered him. Before I went back to Korea, in airport a fan gave me a sketch. It’s YunJae’s sketch and it was really good, I liked it so much.
I know I’m the one who let him go, I know I’m the one who wanted him to forget me… but… my heart is also broken. However, it’s still love.
I love you; though I’ll long for you
Don’t worry about my tears anymore
No matter where you are, if you’re hurt I’ll die
My heart can only live if you’re happy
I swear
(It’s Still Love - Fly To The Sky)
Author: missmun
Pairing: YunJae
Genre: Romance, angst
Rating: PG
Length: chaptered
Chapter: 2/4 - For You To Live Your Life
Disclaimer:
They are not mine.
Summary: This is only a story about YunJae started from their separation. When Jaejoong decided to leave Yunho and wanted Yunho to forget him.
Chapter 1
Soundtracks:
For You It’s Separation, To Me It’s Waiting - Kim Jae Joong
It’s Still Love - Fly To The Sky
Lyrics (Hangeul + Eng translation) + Download links ( Here )
Jaejoong’s POV
I sighed. It’s been a week since my last meeting with Yunho in SM building. But it seemed like a thousand years has passed. I looked again the picture in my laptop wallpaper; it’s Dong Bang Shin Ki. I saw Yunho was smiling there. I really love his smile.
But… I feel… empty? Yeah, since I left him. I feel alone.
I went to living room and turned TV on, thought that it might make me forget about him for a while. But I saw about his news, about him dating a secret girl. My heart broke into pieces. I believe in him, I know he wouldn’t do this to me, we have promised -he has promised me- that we’ll be together again. But, I saw him smiling. He’s happy. He’s happy now. Is he happy because of his new girlfriend?
I knew that his dad never accept about rumor that Yunho and I are in a love relationship. And I knew his dad hoped Yunho to date a girl to get him out of this nonsense rumor. Now, Yunho has a girlfriend, his dad must be happy with this news.
Should I give up? My love will never become true, we’ll never be together. Too many obstacles in our path, I’m not sure we can through these all.
But this meant… our group will never reunite again. And it’s my fault, because of my sinful love, my selfish love.
***
I want you to forget me
Don’t hesitate
For now.
(For You It’s Separation, To Me It’s Waiting - Kim Jae Joong)
I took my jacket and went out to take a walk. I ended up in a street food stall where Yunho and I always spent in midnight. It’s only about 5 people there and I could see one of them… it’s Yunho, his head laid on the table where there were about 4 bottles of Soju. I walked closer and I could hear it clearly he mumbled my name.
“Yunho-yah…” I knew he was drunk, but I wanted to talk to him. “You can live without me, can’t you?”
“Joongie…” he mumbled again, I guessed he didn’t know I’m here. His eyes were closed. He seemed unconscious.
“Yunho, is the rumor true? Do you really have a girlfriend?” I realized I was stupid because asking that question. Now, he’s in front of me and drunk which may be because of me. So how could he think about other girl when a name he always called is my name? I smiled bitterly. I knew he still loved me, but it hurt me more to see him like this. How could I let someone I love become like this? I heard he always get drunk anytime he has problems. And I knew I’m one of his biggest problems.
“Yunho, now I want to just let you go. Live your life…” tears started to fall down on my cheeks. “Yunho-yah… Be happy, be strong, and be healthy. Don’t worry about me, just forget me. Forget me…” I paused a while to wipe my tears. “I don’t know what future will bring us. Maybe we can be together again… or not.” I sobbed.
“Forget me… and goodbye… for now.”
***
It was when JYJ held a concert in Shanghai. I remembered well, I had visited this city with Yunho, with the rest TVXQ members. We’re still happy and we don’t have any problems back then. But those all only remained as unforgettable memories.
To be honest, I felt incomplete every time I had to perform with JYJ, it’s… different when Changmin and Yunho with us. I felt something’s missing.
What will be the same (maybe) is the red ocean that we will always see. I never want to lose that beautiful sight that our Cassiopeia gave. And… why must they stubbornly call themselves Cassiopeia even though we, JYJ, are not in TVXQ anymore? Did… did they know that our soul is still belonged to a name… TVXQ?
I felt that this concert was a bit different than other JYJ concerts. It might be because I had some sweet memories with Yunho in Shanghai, so it’s only Yunho, Yunho and Yunho that I could think about all day. And I saw so many YunJae placards too. I heard so many fans shouted Yunho’s name out, it made me wanna cry. It was when the MC interviewed me, Cassiopeia kept shouting “Jung Yunho” and I felt nervous suddenly. I was happy that there were some YunJae fans, but… it’s nothing without Yunho. Yunho…
***
This is my love
My heart is broken from letting you go
Even if I calmly turn away first
It’s still love
(It’s Still Love - Fly To The Sky)
Seoul, South Korea.
Today is my free day, and I didn’t know why I was so emotional today. I remembered again the concert in Shanghai a couple days ago. I cried during the concert… just because… I remembered him. Before I went back to Korea, in airport a fan gave me a sketch. It’s YunJae’s sketch and it was really good, I liked it so much.
I know I’m the one who let him go, I know I’m the one who wanted him to forget me… but… my heart is also broken. However, it’s still love.
I love you; though I’ll long for you
Don’t worry about my tears anymore
No matter where you are, if you’re hurt I’ll die
My heart can only live if you’re happy
I swear
(It’s Still Love - Fly To The Sky)