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i hold too much inside. i know i shouldnt but i do. i cant help it. i am too scared to let it out. too scared if i told someone, anyone what i was thinking or feeling, they would leave. leave and never come back. leave and gossip about me behind my back, taking what i said the wrong way. i know that if they were truly dear to me, they would stay and try to make everything better. but this thought goes in one ear and out the other. its no one in particular just... everyone. i think its funny, i can go up to a random person i dont even know and tell them something, start a conversation. But the people that mean the most, i feel the emotions become dry words in my throat. i dont want people to read this and be like "oh is she talking about me?" because im not. i swear im not. i hate being so pessimistic but, i cant help it. i worry too much.. well thats my venting for tonight. Good night world