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Zach went for coffee today with his ex. He discussed it with me and I said it was ok. Although I would feel slightly uncomfortable, it would be ok.
Now he calls, upset, watching her sit in her car outside his house. He doesn't know what to do. I knew this would happen.
The fact that he makes me happy is undeniable, but I hate living like this. My sanity is dangling from a tiny delicate thread that could snap at any second, and when it does I am sent spiraling into a whirlwind of depression again. I might even prefer the perpetual bad mood to these tiny glimpses of light from time to time.
//i am folded
and unfolded
and unfolding
Now he calls, upset, watching her sit in her car outside his house. He doesn't know what to do. I knew this would happen.
The fact that he makes me happy is undeniable, but I hate living like this. My sanity is dangling from a tiny delicate thread that could snap at any second, and when it does I am sent spiraling into a whirlwind of depression again. I might even prefer the perpetual bad mood to these tiny glimpses of light from time to time.
//i am folded
and unfolded
and unfolding